Kez

Not quite sure what I am doing here, but just wanted to see how the rest of the world is coping.

personally - well I havnt quit drinking, it is not as much as a problem for me but it still hinders my life...

frankly - I dont know what to say or do about it!!!!

stillsleeping

Heh! Frank, simple and to the point - I like it! How you doin today?

Terminally Unique

I think you do, since you specifically mentioned that you haven't done it.

Kez

ye still the same as a few minutes ago....just not sure where to go anymore....

Kez

yeah maybe TU, otherwise why would I be here?
have got it more under control than I had before, but I aint kiddin myself thinkin Ive kicked it... because I damn well Know that I havnt.... just where to go from here....

langkah

Things are good here, real good.

My gf was accepted into a university Chemistry program today, and because most of her classes in her previous major apply, she obtain her degree in only 13 months.

Heard that a respected old timer and his sober wife are living in the little town we want to move to and for it's size AA looks to be very active and available. So, sponsorship and fellowship await us there.

All good stuff, thanks for asking.

Maybe at some point you'll consider deciding again to not drink forever, firmly and with ironclad resolve?

Firehazard

Well Kez, It is not a problem unless it causes problems and if they are pooping up in your life it may be time to quit. I had to try it on my own and it did not work.

Just could not stop starting to drink. I have found much better solutions to drinking and Sober Recovery is one. Hope you stick around and are able to find away.

Kez

Yep I Hope to god you are right,,, the pain it causes really isnt worth it.. i dont understand why this is a challenge that is put before us... why has it even been made to have to overcome??????

JustBreath

Kez

stillsleeping

No one put this challenge in front of me. I was born with it. If not this challenge, there'd be another one. Who gets an easy life? Who wants an easy life?

Kez

Yep Firehazard have been here before, and know the transformation it brings with cutting out this crap in my life... but somehow I have made it bareable to a point,,, (not always) which makes me think I am ok,, but I know I am not,, the drink will always win with this thinking, and suck me in.... no matter how controlled I feel, I know I am just TRYING TO CONTROL IT and not really being rationale.....

BillyPilgrim

It isnt easy to stop drinking , but it is worth it
Start by not drinking today
Surf a bit on SR, go to AA, or do what you need
We can offer tools enough, but you have to pick them up.
After not drinking today it becomes tomorrow, repeat what you did today
The urges are hard to shake, but you can do it

Kez

Stillsleeping - thats right you were born with it.. but why,, why do some of us have to and some of us not??? Also there ARE many other challenges,,, am just wondering why this one is so hard to beat - and frankly, who gets an easy life, who wants an easy life as you say... well ummm ME.. I want it. sooo many other people have it,, why not me,, umm and hang on! why not YOU, why not any of us???????

Just sayin!

Kez

Yep Billy I know,, and the evil is,,,,, because nothing real bad has happened lately because of my drinking I think its ok.. but jezus Im just holdin on....

and i think because I am holdin on Im fine i can deal with it... meh.............

wheresthefun

Okay, I'll be willing to suspend rational thought for a minute and say this is true.

SO WHAT?

If someone else has something you want, then why don't you work to get it for yourself?

Sapling

Because we're alcoholics...You can either die from it...Or live with it.....The choice was pretty easy for me....I found a way out and I don't drink....I don't miss it either.

artsoul

Welcome Kez!

You're caught in an addiction and addictions are hard to break without help. I think most of us tried to control our drinking for years before we figured out that we couldn't do it. You took a step today by reaching out for help, so give yourself a hug for that!

That was me, too. Everything looked pretty good from the outside because I made sure to pretend I was OK. On the inside, though, I wasn't so great.

Stick around..... just keep reading and posting...... It really helps to talk/listen to others who know what you're going through.

Dee74

some great advice here Kez - welcome back

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Kez

@wheresthefun - suspend rational thought??? you dont believe people that have easy lives are out there??? And yes that is what I was getting at, about going out there and getting it....
Wow Sapling you dont miss it, thats great I really really congratulate you. For me It will be pretty hard to quit doing something that would be in your face everyday and not miss it, I mean it is hard to quit with it not being in your face.
Thanks Artsoul
and thanks Dee x

Dee74

I'm an Aussie too Kez - it was tough to begin with but I'm actually not conscious of alcohol or drinking around me now - unless someone makes an ass of themselves

Hang in there - I suspect it will matter less and less for you too.

What other people do is their business - I know I've found a way of life that works so much better for me, and I want to keep living this way, not their way

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