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Old 03-17-2012, 09:40 AM
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slipping back into the darkness .....

I'm looking for support to help me stop drinking (again). My dad died last September and it changed me. I realized I didn't want to be like him and drink my life away. I found a wonderful therapist who showed me it WAS possible for me to stop drinking. I stopped for a few weeks, started exercising and eating healthier. I've dropped almost 40 pounds and only drank a little wine a few days a week.

Lately I feel like I'm slipping back into the abyss and I'm drinking everyday, sometimes a lot, and I so don't want to go there again. I had to stop therapy because it was just too expensive.

I want to get sober and I hope to find some support here in these forums
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Old 03-17-2012, 12:13 PM
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Hi nextchapter,

You will find a lot of support here. Keep reading and posting. Take care.
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Old 03-17-2012, 12:19 PM
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Nextchapter - Welcome! You don't have to go back to that miserable life. It's good that you're paying attention to the warning signs. We all understand what you're going through - you're not alone with this. We care about you & want to help.
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Old 03-17-2012, 12:35 PM
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I had to stop therapy because it was just too expensive.
Welcome Nextchapter...I saw about 60 therapists this morning...And it was free...My AA meeting was a little crowded for St. Paddy's Day...But I learned a lot and I'm not drinking today...
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I'm glad you decided to post and to seek support for yourself.
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Old 03-17-2012, 12:56 PM
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Welcome to SR nextchapter - there's a ton of support here

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Old 03-17-2012, 03:32 PM
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Thank you all so much! I plan to spend a lot of time here
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Old 03-17-2012, 03:37 PM
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The toughest time for me is when I get out of work. AA meetings seem to always start around 7 or 8PM. Maybe I can find one early in the morning.
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Old 03-17-2012, 03:46 PM
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Dont slip back into the darkness mate, its really not worth it, it only gets worse! just back from a painful relapse myself, if you cant get to meetings, keep in contact on here as much as you can, surround yourself (virtually) with the good people in recovery and you WILL get there mate! pm me if you need to talk ...anytime
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Welcome to the family. There's a lot of support here. We understand.
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Old 03-17-2012, 05:51 PM
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Welcome NextChapter!

So sorry about your dad...... I'm sure he would be proud of you for trying to get sober. I tried many, many times to drink "reasonably" but finally had to admit that I was never satisfied with one or two drinks. Like you, I ended up in the same spot (or worse).

Keep reading and posting - no need to fight this by yourself!
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You can do it! The longer you go the easier it gets. Hang in there.
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Old 03-19-2012, 03:53 PM
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I did it for a few months. I changed my diet, exercised and drank only a few glasses of white wine every week. I dropped 36 pounds and I was feeling great! The past couple of weeks I've gone off the deep end again which proves that an alcoholic can't drink normally. There's no reason for the drinking ... it just happens so I need another plan
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I did it for a few months. I changed my diet, exercised and drank only a few glasses of white wine every week. I dropped 36 pounds and I was feeling great! The past couple of weeks I've gone off the deep end again which proves that an alcoholic can't drink normally. There's no reason for the drinking ... it just happens so I need another plan
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Old 03-19-2012, 03:58 PM
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Welcome Nextchapter you will love SR, great supprt!
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Old 03-19-2012, 04:02 PM
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I'm a great believer in changing daily routines in early recovery. It helped me a lot to get outside after supper and walk (my trigger time). If after work is hard for you, how about going to the gym or doing something different after work?

Know that you can do this.
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Old 03-19-2012, 04:39 PM
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Changing my routine is what worked for me the past few months. When I left work I would grab a hot dog instead of a nip of bourbon. Not sure what happened the past couple of weeks. I was headed for a meeting after work today when my mom called to tell me my nephew had wrecked her car so I pulled over in the first parking lot to talk on the cell phone and it happened to be a liquor store. Needless to say, those little nips were calling me. It's an insane cycle
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Old 03-20-2012, 01:19 AM
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I always used to forget that alcohol is an addictive substance, eveytime I drank I was feeding the "wanting" monster.

I found over the years it can survive for long periods while I took a rest but was always there when I came back.
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You can do this if you try hard enough. There are a lot of good people here at SR that are willing to help you in your recovery. Just do what you have to do to get to the other side. It will pay off in the long run. Good luck on your journey into recovery. Love and Respect. Logo
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