muffin1707

No, really I am angry, depressed, hopeless, anxiety in my chest. I feel terrible. Now, I have a lot of horrible things going on in my life right now and it certainly does not help. I had no choice to quit smoking and drinking. I'm broke.

I cannot go to AA meetings. In my entire life of 60 years I have never been a joiner of anything. It is just not for me.

I guess today is not a good day to talk about it. I just feel like crying (actually I have been). I feel all alone. It is horrible.

Hopeless71

I'm right there with you, I just quit smoking 4 weeks ago and I'm on day 7 without drinking. I know it sucks but I can say this day 7 feels so much better than day 3. Hang in there.

jstar

day 3 does suck...how you feel is normal, your body is in detox mode & you are "feeling" things instead of numbing every everything. at least that is how I see it. I got 5 days & blew it because I was so angry at myself it just seemed better to numb it all out. everyone has told me it will get better and I so hope they are right.

congrats on 3 days..celebrate that

stillsleeping

Hey Muffin (nice name...)

Day 3 might suck. It did for me - bad. And you're not alone - we're all here. Crying and hating everything is normal - read around and I'll be amazed if you can find anyone who sailed through day 3. But it does get better, and quickly. Day 5 for me was good, and day 6 was amazing. Everyone I've spoken to about booze, me included, felt great once the funk started to lift. And it doesn't take long.

Stick with it hon. And keep posting - no one here minds if you're grumpy...

Still

Sapling

For me getting sober was all about making major changes in my life...Nothing else....I either completely changed what I had been doing while drinking for 35 years...Or I was toast....That's the only two options I had left.

Anna

SR can be a great place to find support and information, so keep reading and posting.

muffin1707

Thank you everyone. I just hate this anxiety in my chest. I broke down and scraped together change... do you believe that... to buy one pack of cigarettes. I told the convenience guys in the store that this will be my last and no more wine and beer. They were actually happy and congratulated me. It was very strange going in there and not coming out with both. I guess they kept it in stock for me. Carlo Rossi Blush.. the big bottle. I mixed it with a little diet 7-up. I hated the taste straight. Isn't that sick?

I got a letter from the mortgage company re the foreclosure and I have some papers to fill out and both of us have to sign them, but my MIA husband can't be found. Married 25 years. I can't do this foreclosure thing without him. I don't know where I am going to go. I have dogs, cats, chickens, and two parrots. They mean everything to me. I use to do dog rescue for awhile.

He was let go because at 52 he was diagnosed with congestive heart failure in December. He is waiting on disability I guess.

I just sit and pray out loud to God to help me through all of this. My family and friends are sick of me talking about this stuff. I have not told them I am trying to quit alcohol. They all drink. They think they have their's under control.

I have found through all of this more comfort in strangers and thank God for them. Sorry, to be a burden, but the silence in this house is killing me.

I love this place (SR). I read it all day long. I did look up my local AA place yesterday. I might give them a call today. Or just go.

Sapling

You're not a burden Muffin...You're simply one of us. I'm glad you're here.

BillyPilgrim

Keep chatting to us muffin, we have all been in that dark place, SR has really helped me, I get lots of strength from it

jocata

Hang in there Muffin. You are not alone here. We know how you feel. If you do go to an AA meeting, you will find that you are not alone there either.

God bless.

Carla77

Hang in there, muffin! The first couple of weeks are the toughest, but once you are through them, you will feel SO good!! And the people here are amazing........reading posts on here is what got/kept me sober!

sugarbear1

You joined SR, that is great! That is a new beginning.

Amazing things can happen when you stay stopped. There'a a lot of people in Florida who stay stopped together.

Prayers sent your way.
Hugs,

itchy166

muffin I am on day 3 today as well. Our stories are different, but the pain is the same. Yesterday I started crying while I was driving for no apparent reason - in the afternoon I suffered a pretty severe panic attack.

So far this morning has been ok - but its still early. Maybe we can make it through day 3 together?

NewLifeAt60

Hi Muffin. I'm not a joiner either but I'm trying to stay open to whatever it takes. After many years of Days 3-4, I finally got to 28 yesterday. Getting past those first days was difficult, anxious, and scary and I'd be lying if I said it's been smooth sailing after that. But it is SO much better. I'm dealing with financial disasters as well (husband and I living in 275 square feet efficiency motel for past year after a major income reduction and having to borrow to stay here). I told myself I'd stop drinking when things got better. I finally realized that NOTHING would get better until I did stop. I'm praying for you to get past this and turn things around.

SASA

Muffin, hang in there, you can get trough this. Have faith. Maybe this is your bottom. I was in a similar situation and actually even I was so desperate at the time this happened it turned out to be the best thing in my life that could have happened to me......

Olivia333

Hang in there muffin try to stay strong. You can do it and things WILL get better trust me.

Just come on here and you will recieve so much love it will help get you through. You just need to believe in yourself and keep telling yourself that you can do it! because you can!

The thing that helped me was reading other peoples posts and it gave me hope and motivation, people can live clean and sober and be happy! I didn't think it was possible but now I know it is!

Stay strong xo
Olivia

CaiHong

Hi Muffin,

This can't be easy wiith all that is going on around you. Day 3 seems to be the killer day but hang in there it will get better.

With everything around you out of control and feeling hopeless, you have control of the one thing that will change your life, your sobriety. For this you are going to need support, all the support you can muster.
AA can give you that support.
Keep close to this forum and give AA a go.

All the best

caiHong

aasharon90

Would you believe at 50 is when I got
my first tattoo. Im still a child. lol
They say that the age I began drinking
is when my maturity stopped growing.
So in my early teens till 30 my maturity
halted.

Im not really sure how old i am maturity
wise, but i still feel young at heart mind
and soul.

Anyway.....we are as young as we feel and
living a sober life gives me so much life and
freedom to do many wonderful, helpful, enjoyable
things in life. Even getting my bike endorsement
at 50.

DayTrader

You'll probably find staying sober nd enjoying life will require setting aside many old beliefs and habits. If u ever want any help with AA, let me know. It's kept me sober and happy for years.

Dee74

Glad you're here Muffin - you're among friends

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