so far, so good
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so far, so good
I went to a meeting today (6 in 6). I had to leave early to meet with my therapist. Met with her and came clean that i'd been drinking all through therapy. I floored her. That's how good i am at acting. We talked quite a bit and she's quite impressed with the decisions i'm making. It feels good not to have to practice my "lines" before seeing her. I'm finally in control of my words and my actions.
Today in group we talked about the 12th promise. I need that one bad my social anxiety is so difficult to deal with as are my financial issues. They are a great source of stress but through the AA meetings i am already finding the social anxiety lessening. Also, when i'm sober and i'm in control i'm not afraid of acting the fool. So much less fear. Financially i've probably already saved 60 bucks this week avoiding booze. Feels good.
I'm agnostic but i'm finding a lot of strength in the community and program in AA. Something i've realized is that rehab and treatment are finite. AA is infinite. And you get to meet and hear from people with everything from days to years of recovery. If you don't believe in god, think of your High Power as the Power of the Program Nd the Power of the Community. It's working for me so far. I finally have real, honest hope.
Got another meeting today then getting my hair done. Self care feels amazing. Good luck everyone. Take care of yourselves. To those of you who still suffer, give yourself a chance. You deserve it.
Today in group we talked about the 12th promise. I need that one bad my social anxiety is so difficult to deal with as are my financial issues. They are a great source of stress but through the AA meetings i am already finding the social anxiety lessening. Also, when i'm sober and i'm in control i'm not afraid of acting the fool. So much less fear. Financially i've probably already saved 60 bucks this week avoiding booze. Feels good.
I'm agnostic but i'm finding a lot of strength in the community and program in AA. Something i've realized is that rehab and treatment are finite. AA is infinite. And you get to meet and hear from people with everything from days to years of recovery. If you don't believe in god, think of your High Power as the Power of the Program Nd the Power of the Community. It's working for me so far. I finally have real, honest hope.
Got another meeting today then getting my hair done. Self care feels amazing. Good luck everyone. Take care of yourselves. To those of you who still suffer, give yourself a chance. You deserve it.
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Originally Posted by DisplacedGRITS
If you don't believe in god, think of your High Power as the Power of the Program Nd the Power of the Community. It's working for me so far. I finally have real, honest hope.
I do much the same. As an atheist my HP is the Helping Potential of people in and outside the program. Also connecting with the agnostic/atheist community in AA has helped heaps. I get lots of support to continue on my recovery path.
Its_me_jen
Join Date: May 2004
Location: Salina, Ks
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Awesome post! Being able to get honest with someone really took a load off my shoulders. It felt amazing.
I came into AA agnostic. Today I'd say I'm agnostic-ish.
Whatever works. It's YOUR "higher power". No one else has to get it or agree. When I finally believed that in my heart, it was so much easier for me to move through the steps.
I came into AA agnostic. Today I'd say I'm agnostic-ish.
Whatever works. It's YOUR "higher power". No one else has to get it or agree. When I finally believed that in my heart, it was so much easier for me to move through the steps.
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