aeo1313

I joined 3 months ago. I was taking hydrocodone and weekend binge drinking. Started to go to AA, but quit about a month ago. I wasn't really trying to change anything. I am now swiging vodka out of the bottle duriing the day. Never thought that would be me.

My daughter's Bat Mitzvah is the end of April and I so want/need to be healthy for that. When I started drinking again 3-4 weeks ago things seemed better, but not anymore.

Sapling

Welcome back AEO...I did this for way too long...You have to commit yourself to this thing...Give yourself some kind of chance...You have to want to change...Now sounds like a good time.

Holly7

March 13th 2012 seems like the perfect day to quit and get your life back on track. You can do it!!

JohnnyDetox

Sorry to hear aeo...I've been in and out of the rooms a few times and it always shocking at how fast I can go downhill I gather things were pretty good while not drinking, how about going back to AA? If your embarresed, don't be. You wouldn't be the first. You'd be welcomed back, I'm sure of it.

desertsong

I was wondering what had happened to you, aeo. It's never too late to start again. Now you know what can happen when you pick up again ... goes from bad to worse pretty quick. Welcome back and let this be your last Day One.

aeo1313

I think I figured the pills were out I better learn to like drinking daily. Fuzzy and making bat mitzvah plans on the phone right now. My daughter deserves better

Sapling

At least you came back here...It shows you want to deal with it.

Threshold

Glad you're back aeo, it IS scary isn't it, how quickly things get worse. But they can also get better.

jocata

Done the same thing lots of times. I finally just had to commit myself 100% and not pick up a drug or a drink, no matter what.

Are you going to do anything different this time?

God bless.

Symmetry

Sometimes I just can't relate to these types of posts but right now I totally do. Drinking is so easy and that fuzzy feeling is so fuzzy. I remember. My withdrawal was terrible. The first week I locked myself in my bedroom and posted on SR continuously. I'm not sure why or how I got through it but I know I dont ever want to do it again. It gets easier. For me, being sober is just normal. 8 months later I still think about drinking but those thoughts go just as quickly as they come. I can count on that now. Your daughter does deserve better and so do you. Sobriety is a gift for all. The voice in your post has really struck a chord with me. You are not alone in your struggle. You can be well.

eJoshua

Welcome back! I was that guy too, for the last year or two of my drinking.

What are your plans for quitting?

langkah

Chances are the lady you found willing to help you is still sober and active and available.

At least you won't need to wonder now if you're a fake in the meetings. As far as how quickly the yets come around, it varies but each is always a total and complete surprise as is the next one and all those after.

GirlFromCO

Hey aeo. I was wondering about you too. I'm really sorry to hear that things have gotten worse. It makes me sad to read about it.

I hope you can find the will to quit, aeo.

instant

All we can deal with is today and that is enough. Do the good things

aeo1313

Hungover and my first day in weeks with no hgydrocodone. I deserve to feel as crappy as I know I will today. How did I end up sneaking shots of vodka in the garage so quickly? Why do I always up the ante?

sugarbear1

Is there a meeting today? try to get there! save your self from more "not yets"

FlyerFan

Glad you are back with us.

sugarbear1

stay out of the garage and start again tomorrow. get to a meeting as soon as you can.

a new solution waits for you!

Zebra1275

When you talk about drinking vodka during the day it makes the hair on the back of my neck stand up. That stuff almost did me in. Take some action before you go off an another binge, if it were me I'd go to an AA meeting.

katrinka

Welcome back and I'm happy you did, SR was very helpful to me. I think we all can relate to how quickly things can go bad. Try again and put yourself first. Think about your daughter second and how happy she will be with a sober mom. You can do this!