eh1988

How's it going everyone? Hope all of you had a great and sober day. I figured I'd get on here and vent a little with my keyboard instead of venting with a bottle in my hand. It seems like the minute I woke up my day was slowly on it's way downhill. Well on my way to work I was stuck in traffic for way longer than usual, not because there was an accident, but because everybody was driving WAY under the speed limit. I was getting so damn frustrated and my brain automatically went to that "I need a drink" mood. I just kept driving, got to work and my boss hit me with some crap news, the guy who I work closely with (we do the same job) had surgery and is going to be out for 8 weeks. So this basically means I have to do double the work for 8 weeks, which now means I'll have to come in early and stay late and work weekends too. So around lunch time I get a call from my fiance and she asks if I want to meet up for lunch around 1pm, so I told her I'd probably be too busy to leave for lunch. Well she got really upset and started telling me I don't have time for her unless it fits my schedule, blah blah. I wanted to go off on her and tell her "Don't you know what the hell I'm going through? I'm barely a week sober, I'm stressed out from work, the last thing I need is to argue with you!" But I just kept it to myself because I know she doesn't understand what it's like. Well after all this I had to work an extra 2 hours tonight, once I got out of the office I was driving home and almost got into an accident (I had to swirve and almost hit the guard rail on the freeway) Some moron decided to switch lanes into me, I had a car infront of me and a car tailgating me and this idiot keeps switching lanes into me, I got pushed all the way to the guard rail before he saw that there was a car right next to him that he just pushed into the guard rail! This was the last straw, I lost all patience and rolled down my window and proceeded to cuss him out as he drove off.....probably not my most calm moment but God I had enough already. I swear by the time I was home I was steaming. It's hard to get used to days like this while remaining sober, but I knew all my days wouldn't be great. And now my girl is staying with her parents tonight because she's mad at me I guess. Ugh I probably sound like a crybaby but damn what a frustrating day. Anyway, thanks for taking the time to read my vent, I really appreciate it.

eh1988

Sorry about the double post, my internet is acting up.

sugarbear1

click on EDIT within 15 minutes and just delete the whole thing and put a period in it's place. .

whiskeyjoe

All this and you stayed sober even though you only have a week? I'd say that today was a success.


What matters most is how well you walk through the fire.

sugarbear1

You didn't accidentally pray for patience, lately, have you?

Wow! You are awesome and you didn't need to drink! Isn't life beautifully sober today!!?!!

Way to go!!

(how about getting a notepad and pen and writing a gratitude list--you are:
sober
employed (I'm not yet)
own a vehicle (I'm not yet)
have a fiance (don't ask, I don't have a bf now)
____________ (add your own here)

seems like you are ahead of me!)

Holly7

Wow. What a day! And then to come home to am empty house and still not drink. That's amazing!!!! You should be so proud of yourself.

eh1988

Thank you for smacking me with some truth, I do have a lot and I should be grateful for that instead of letting small stuff ruin my day. I appreciate that. And don't worry, with sobriety you are capable of achieving anything you want!

instant

It is hard but you are tough. I am nearly 10 months and I am learning that life doesn't stop to give me an easy ride because I am finally starting to take care of myself. I have found that I have to learn new skills to get through the hard stuff. The thing that has helped me the most is a daily practice of gratitude, after a month it can help generate a new mindset that is available most tough times.

I have faced some major challenges, I am sure I would not be in as good a shape if I still drinking.

I wonder how you would go putting in a 10hour day with bbbbbbbbbbaaaaaaadddd hangover?

wellwisher

The day certainly can change when you look at everything through a different lens.

Nothing in that day to get drunk over.

You did well, indeed.

NewBeginning010

You made it through today like a rock star Nice work!

You will also feel much better than you would have if you gave in tomorrow morning. Could you imagine having to have that full day tomorrow with a massive hangover & regrets of drinking & all of the negatives that go with it? No Thanks ;-)

Great Job... keep it up!