PBODY

I have been fighting my Addiction to alchoale for years I started drinking when I was 13. I am 25 now turning 26 in a few months. I have been in and out of the hospital when I was a child in and out of jail.

and now my family is suffering, my lovely wife I don't deserve this woman. I quit for about 2 years and I have deffinatly jumped heavily back into it.

I am afraid I am going to harm someone I love dearly.

I cant stop

I don't know what to do. today is the first day sober in about 2 months.

I started doing a personal inventory I never made it that far I just dont want to waste my time if it doesn't work.

I am ruining not only my life but every one that I love.

Sapling

Hey Pbody...Welcome to SR...What inventory are you working?

PBODY

I think it is my resintment inventory. I only have 4 people it took me an hour or more. I cant do this any more I just can't understand why I can't stop

Dazee

Hi Pbody,
Welcome to SR!

Sapling

Do you have somebody helping you with that Pbody?...A sponsor...You say today is your first day sober?

PBODY

Thank you

eJoshua

Hi Pbody, welcome to SR!

Everyone here has been in your shoes before, trust me. It does get better. I got sober almost one year ago at age 25.

I think it's great that you are ready to launch into your inventory, but do you feel like you have a grasp on steps 1-3 yet? If today's your first day sober in almost two months maybe you had better start at step 1 again.

Best wishes

PBODY

nope no one is helping me I was thinking about going to a morning aa group but I don't know how I am going to manage my time I already am having problems 5 classes for school, a 3 year old 2 dogs.

I am just unsure if I can manage my sobriety

Sapling

Just relax Pbody....I was where you are...There's ways to get out of this...Take it easy..

PBODY

I have had a grasp of steps 1-3 for 7 years now

Sapling

Don't worry about those steps right now....Do you have a Big Book with you?

Newbeginning12

Welcome Pbody!

If you want to do this, do what ever it takes. It's so worth it and you are still so young.

One day at a time and get whatever help you need. I had some dark days early on, but reading here always picked me up and gave me strength to make it through. (I did alot of reading on here) There is light at the end of the tunnel and you can do this.
Keep trying things until you find what works for you.
One day at a time becomes weeks, then months, then years.

Life is much better once you get over putting poisons into your body.

sissy07

Pbody,

Welcome to SR. I think I know how you feel.....but you stayed sober for 2 years - you can do it again. Is there any way you can do rehab? Please take care, and hold on. Never give up. If I can do this anyone can. It won't get any easier, and it never gets better. Get some help.

PBODY

Yes I have my big book sapling.

Sapling

Do this...Take the inventory and put it away...You don't need to work on that tonight...Have you read Bill's Story yet?

PBODY

yes and sadly I can't stop crying everytime I pick it up I am on the third chapter from this morning

least

to the family.

Sapling

You don't need to cry...You're safe here...Ain't nobody going to hurt you..If you want to take a break on reading...That's alright...Is today your first day not drinking?

Dee74

Hi PBODY

Welcome

I don't know much in practical terms about the 12 steps...I took myself through them too when I was still drinking but it didn't seem to change my situation much.

I suspect having someone to help you through the process might be more helpful - I didn't really know what I was doing at the time.

D

PBODY

yes today is my first day, my whole body aches my wife is working and I am worrying