Moderation
Moderation
is the fantasy of every problem drinker and drugger. Every person i've ever known with such a problem tried to moderate their use. Most posts i read here indicate prior attempts, current attempts, or fantasies of moderation.
Here's the drill. Change the external circumstances. Change the substance. Set rules. Control the frequency. Control the quantity. Ad infinitum.
My personal experience with this is vast, and painful. Years of failed attempts eventually morphed into a defeated nihilistic view that was desperate and confused. I literally wanted to die and was well on the way to achieving that end, just slowly as i was afraid to commit suicide.
But i have to acknowledge that my experience, while pretty extensive, doesn't even begin to touch the scope of humanity as a whole. There are people who develop a problem and then learn to moderate. I know one such person. He speaks of the experience as being careful, guarded, and methodical.
My question is why? By the time we reach the point of having to consider moderating our drinking and drug use there are real problems in our lives. Why do we all want to cling so dearly to something that has caused us such suffering? When i learned i was allergic to tomatoes i quit eating them. Thinking of eating them made me cringe because i knew it would hurt me. But with drugs and booze i followed the delusion of success until it nearly killed me.
Here's the drill. Change the external circumstances. Change the substance. Set rules. Control the frequency. Control the quantity. Ad infinitum.
My personal experience with this is vast, and painful. Years of failed attempts eventually morphed into a defeated nihilistic view that was desperate and confused. I literally wanted to die and was well on the way to achieving that end, just slowly as i was afraid to commit suicide.
But i have to acknowledge that my experience, while pretty extensive, doesn't even begin to touch the scope of humanity as a whole. There are people who develop a problem and then learn to moderate. I know one such person. He speaks of the experience as being careful, guarded, and methodical.
My question is why? By the time we reach the point of having to consider moderating our drinking and drug use there are real problems in our lives. Why do we all want to cling so dearly to something that has caused us such suffering? When i learned i was allergic to tomatoes i quit eating them. Thinking of eating them made me cringe because i knew it would hurt me. But with drugs and booze i followed the delusion of success until it nearly killed me.
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The only people who yearn to drink moderately are obviously problem drinkers. Why else would they yearn to drink moderately? It's like saying that you yearn to be taller, which is just another way of saying that you are too short.
It seems we just have it in for ourselves. I know i did. Eventually i realized that i didn't want to moderate at all. I wanted license to get high and blot out my past, my current, my failings, insecurities, and fears without the negative consequences. I just wanted to be anything but me. Finally i gave that up, and my life has meaning and real happiness now even with the faults that i'm working on. But even 2 years later the occasional "i can handle it" thought enters my mind.
addiction is weird.
addiction is weird.
Here's the drill. Change the external circumstances. Change the substance. Set rules. Control the frequency. Control the quantity. Ad infinitum.
All the moderation in the world didn't help me address the question why I wanted to disconnect my emotions, or why I found everyday reality unbearable.
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well-timed
AugustWest, that would have been comical if I weren't so desperate. I had literally just hit "send" on my first post ever to this forum, in which I talked about wanting to moderate. Point taken.
I honestly don't feel that I'm avoiding anything- I just LOVE BOOZE. I love the way it makes me more talkative and free. I love abandon. I mean, I'm sure I have underlying issues just like anyone else, addict or no, but nothing terrible happened to me in my past.
Anyway. New to all this, wondering how to begin.
Love the Trey pic, BTW. I'm a phan myself, though I tend to prefer the 1996 - 2000 era.
I honestly don't feel that I'm avoiding anything- I just LOVE BOOZE. I love the way it makes me more talkative and free. I love abandon. I mean, I'm sure I have underlying issues just like anyone else, addict or no, but nothing terrible happened to me in my past.
Anyway. New to all this, wondering how to begin.
Love the Trey pic, BTW. I'm a phan myself, though I tend to prefer the 1996 - 2000 era.
Someone posted the other day, "if moderation worked, we'd have a moderation forum here, and you could browse through it to read all of the moderation success stories". That is a pretty darned good point.
There is a group called "Moderation Management" that is for people that want to moderate their drinking. The founder was Audrey Kishline. Google up her story and give it a read. I'd post the link but evidently some people don't like that story and the moderators here get slammed with PMs the last time I posted it.
If you try moderation and it doesn't work for you, come on back. SR will still be here as will AA, Smart, Rational Recovery, et al.
There is a group called "Moderation Management" that is for people that want to moderate their drinking. The founder was Audrey Kishline. Google up her story and give it a read. I'd post the link but evidently some people don't like that story and the moderators here get slammed with PMs the last time I posted it.
If you try moderation and it doesn't work for you, come on back. SR will still be here as will AA, Smart, Rational Recovery, et al.
I'm on day three of yet another attempt. Moderation is the most dangerous thing I can think of right now. I'm just feeling capable of working, making dinner, living my life. Moderation is slow suicide.
Someone posted the other day, "if moderation worked, we'd have a moderation forum here, and you could browse through it to read all of the moderation success stories". That is a pretty darned good point.
There is a group called "Moderation Management" that is for people that want to moderate their drinking. The founder was Audrey Kishline. Google up her story and give it a read. I'd post the link but evidently some people don't like that story and the moderators here get slammed with PMs the last time I posted it.
If you try moderation and it doesn't work for you, come on back. SR will still be here as will AA, Smart, Rational Recovery, et al.
There is a group called "Moderation Management" that is for people that want to moderate their drinking. The founder was Audrey Kishline. Google up her story and give it a read. I'd post the link but evidently some people don't like that story and the moderators here get slammed with PMs the last time I posted it.
If you try moderation and it doesn't work for you, come on back. SR will still be here as will AA, Smart, Rational Recovery, et al.
No moderation has no place in my life when it comes to alcohol. I'm either all out, or all in. Right now I am sober in AA.
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I don't think you could put it any better than Bill W. did in the 1930's..Big Book First Edition..First paragraph of "More About Alcoholism." These guys knew the game.
Most of us have been unwilling to admit we were real alcoholics. No person likes to think he is bodily and mentally different from his fellows. Therefore, it is not surprising that our drinking careers have been characterized by countless vain attempts to prove we could drink like other people. The idea that somehow, someday he will control and enjoy his drinking is the great obsession of every abnormal drinker. The persistence of this illusion is astonishing. Many pursue it into the gates of insanity or death.
Most of us have been unwilling to admit we were real alcoholics. No person likes to think he is bodily and mentally different from his fellows. Therefore, it is not surprising that our drinking careers have been characterized by countless vain attempts to prove we could drink like other people. The idea that somehow, someday he will control and enjoy his drinking is the great obsession of every abnormal drinker. The persistence of this illusion is astonishing. Many pursue it into the gates of insanity or death.
There are people who develop a problem and then learn to moderate. I know one such person. He speaks of the experience as being careful, guarded, and methodical.
My question is why? By the time we reach the point of having to consider moderating our drinking and drug use there are real problems in our lives. Why do we all want to cling so dearly to something that has caused us such suffering?
My question is why? By the time we reach the point of having to consider moderating our drinking and drug use there are real problems in our lives. Why do we all want to cling so dearly to something that has caused us such suffering?
I can't speak for everyone (obviously) but I can speak for a lot of ppl I know who share my experience........ I/we continued to drink in the face of all the problems, the trouble, the pain because I liked to drink. I liked how it made me feel & how it helped me not-feel a lot of emotional pain. For an immature selfish person like me, "how I feel" is THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN THE WORLD....... so if I felt like drinking, I drank. It didn't matter if I knew it would hurt me later, I want to feel good NOW. I'll find some way to deal with the pain of "later" when it rolls around.
Of course, there's always the possibility that one really HAS lost the ability to control/moderate their drinking and they keep drinking (in the face of obvious danger/death) because they can't choose NOT to anymore. Not everyone has..........but many many ppl DO actually lose the power of choice.
It wasn't talking about moderation management, it was the Audrey Kishline story that riled so many people up. Please google it first before you comment.
No moderation has no place in my life when it comes to alcohol. I'm either all out, or all in. Right now I am sober in AA.
No moderation has no place in my life when it comes to alcohol. I'm either all out, or all in. Right now I am sober in AA.
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Does anybody else find it interesting that when it comes to smoking cigarettes, we tell people to quit, but when it comes to drinking, we usually tell them to 'cut back' or to 'get help'?
Here's an official FDA warning on some cigarette packs:
Compare to:
Here's an official FDA warning on some cigarette packs:
Originally Posted by FDA
WARNING: Quitting smoking now greatly reduces serious risks to your health.
Quitting at any age and at any time is beneficial. It's never too late to quit, but the sooner the better. Quitting gives your body a chance to heal the damage caused by smoking.
Quitting at any age and at any time is beneficial. It's never too late to quit, but the sooner the better. Quitting gives your body a chance to heal the damage caused by smoking.
GOVERNMENT WARNING: (1) According to the Surgeon General, women should not drink alcoholic beverages during pregnancy because of the risk of birth defects. (2) Consumption of alcoholic beverages impairs your ability to drive a car or operate machinery, and may cause health problems.
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