MycoolFitz

Really hard day today felt like throwing in the towel but then realized not drinking wasn't a ticket to happiness and serenity. Humans have good and bad days and drinking it away is not an answer. The pups been driving me insane but luckily a shor drive and he has a licence. I really need SR rigfht now. The sun also rises. Thanks for listening. All I needed.

LadyNoBinge

Thank you for posting! It is so brave to reach out. Congratulations on not throwing in the towel, even though you had a yucky day. That is awesome. You are so right, drinking is not the answer. Congratulations!!!!! xo

macknacat

no situation is so bad that i can't make it worse by using...

yeh- life happens and some days the 'only' solace i take is that i am clean/sober . I try to remember: i am free to start my day over [had to do i today- found a time consuming screw up on my boat building...and hit my head on a clamp....and pulled a shelf full of wood off the wall]
And i play the video tape on to the end- yep, that final scene of me using is NEVER a pretty picture...

glad you chose not to use today

MycoolFitz

Well I've been an inch away today but I guess that's enough just need support and humble enoughe to seek it. SR still rocks and I will go on. In fact guess I'll go listene to some rock and roll. Know I've been pissy lately with the PTSD crud but I won't quit

Impurrfect

(((Fitz))) - one of the hardest things for me to accept, in recovery, is that there are going to be bad days. I truly thought that by quitting the dope, my life was going to be GREAT!

Wrong. I've dealt with deaths of dear loved ones, 2 armed robberies - the 2nd getting pistol-whipped by a 14-year-old kid who would go on to murder people the next day, car problems, money problems, dental problems...you name it, I think I've been through it.

I did exactly what you did every time something came up..I came here...to the people who know and "get" me. I'm about to come up on 5 years, and I STILL come here when I feel good, off-balance, hurting, and every other feeling.

I've learned that life isn't all GREAT just because I got clean/sober. I've also learned that no matter what time of day it is, there is someone here who can relate, talk me back into sanity...whatever it takes.

Hugs and prayers,

Amy

Dee74

^ Amy said it all for me really
Hope tomorrow is better for you Fitz

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Zebra1275

Some days suck, glad you didn't pick up.

I find that most of my days are pretty ok, some are fantastic and some are just horrible. I just try to maintain some type of equilibrium as I deal with them. AA has helped me in this regard.

MycoolFitz

Thanks all I just thank feeling normal again is abnormal. So many years drunk I just forgot feelings. It good to feel again even if the feeling hurts. Now I sound like a J Cash song. You all are the greatest support.

desertsong

It never goes away, Fitz, but the voice gets dulled out by the positive feelings. I love reading your posts every day ... very inspiring. You definitely sound like you're on your way to a wonderful new life (crazy puppy and all ... lol) Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.