I feel content in my sobriety
instant
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Join Date: May 2011
Location: Australia
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I feel content in my sobriety
I was on my knees, tormented and despairing.
I have now been sober for 9 months. I feel content in my sobriety am committed to continuing on this chosen path. I do not grieve. On more than one occasion I have cried tears of relief and overwhelming thankfulness.
The journey of recovery has been a major process of awakening, of reconnecting and rediscovering myself and the world around me.
I still have ideas regarding the proposed consumption of alcohol. These experiences are fleeting thoughts rather than the intrusive driven preoccupations and associated physical sensations I experienced in the first few months. It is now far easier to maintain a balanced view from an emotionally stable position. I understand what would happen if I resumed drinking and that my propensity for addiction has not and will not resolve.
It is not all smooth sailing. Life is still life. S**t happens. There is some satisfaction to be gained in dealing with it all without resorting to drinking. I have been very surprised that overall my ability to handle stress has grown markedly. I can only conclude that my use of alcohol increased my sensitivity to stress, and caused me to be an emotional cripple.
My ability to function as a husband, father and in my professional life has increased substantially. I regularly have a pleasant intense awareness when I am experiencing a new way of being me. The personal issues that would benefit from attention have become more obvious to me in my sober state. I am now in a fit enough state to work on them. It is clear to me that I am now growing not dying.
Thank you to everyone at SR for supporting me on the journey.
I have now been sober for 9 months. I feel content in my sobriety am committed to continuing on this chosen path. I do not grieve. On more than one occasion I have cried tears of relief and overwhelming thankfulness.
The journey of recovery has been a major process of awakening, of reconnecting and rediscovering myself and the world around me.
I still have ideas regarding the proposed consumption of alcohol. These experiences are fleeting thoughts rather than the intrusive driven preoccupations and associated physical sensations I experienced in the first few months. It is now far easier to maintain a balanced view from an emotionally stable position. I understand what would happen if I resumed drinking and that my propensity for addiction has not and will not resolve.
It is not all smooth sailing. Life is still life. S**t happens. There is some satisfaction to be gained in dealing with it all without resorting to drinking. I have been very surprised that overall my ability to handle stress has grown markedly. I can only conclude that my use of alcohol increased my sensitivity to stress, and caused me to be an emotional cripple.
My ability to function as a husband, father and in my professional life has increased substantially. I regularly have a pleasant intense awareness when I am experiencing a new way of being me. The personal issues that would benefit from attention have become more obvious to me in my sober state. I am now in a fit enough state to work on them. It is clear to me that I am now growing not dying.
Thank you to everyone at SR for supporting me on the journey.
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Originally Posted by instant
It is not all smooth sailing. Life is still life. S**t happens. There is some satisfaction to be gained in dealing with it all without resorting to drinking.
Congrats, instant!
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