spqr

I don't really know what to say. Or really what happened. I think I got myself into a situation where I was comfortable in my sobriety, comfortable enough to have one beer. That was a few months ago now, and yeah its escalated again. Now I remember why I can't drink.

Anyway. I'm sure the members of this forum have heard that sorry tale a million times before. I just sort of wanted to say it, even if nobody responds. I needed to get it out there.

least

i had too many 'day ones' to count but i never gave up and now have over two years sober. get back up and start over.

Sapling

Just look at it as a learning experience...You know what you have to do...And what you can't do...One beer is too many.

scrambled2012

On this new day, that's all that matters.

spqr

Thanks, there's no point in dwelling on it i suppose.

wellwisher

You might have fallen off the wagon, but the horse didn't bolt.

Climb back on - I've got faith you can do it.

Dee74

no point at all
learn the lessons and move on

welcome back spqr

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2granddaughters

spqr, are you going to AA ?

Bob R

spqr

No i'm not. I'm a bit of an introvert, so talking about myself irl in groups has always seemed daunting to me. I managed 10 months cold turkey. I am going to look into local AA groups tomorrow though, because i don't think this is something I can overcome by myself.

Sapling

You don't need to talk about yourself...Just go and listen. My sponsor told me to just listen for my first 30 days...That's what I did. I learned a lot. You don't need to say anything.

bostonluv

You don't have to talk at all during or before or after a meeting for that matter. I used to experience terrible social anxiety and meetings were so hard for me. Take a deep breath and dive in. Keep going back until you feel comfortable. Some people can do it alone. Most can't. You'll find what works for you in the long run. AA is very effective for many.

spqr

Honestly. I don't think i'll get to 40 years old if I don't. I'm 28 now. I'm anxious about that sort of thing but I can also see the writing on the wall. Even if I had to talk i'd still go to AA. Thanks everyone for your kind words.

Sapling

What's it going to cost you if you don't like it?...It's pretty simple really....The more you put into it...The more you get out of it....Kind of like life.

stepping

spqr - just jump right back on the wagon! stay sober today and then repeat tomorrow. if you quit before you have it in you! i got faith in ya!!! hang in there! dont look back you arent going that way

spqr

Very true, in my sober months I managed to get a new job, a few dates. It's in my nature to do myself down, so the fact I managed that means a lot you know. Nobody in my real life knows yet that i've been drinking again. So, tomorrows another day, like I say i'll be contacting AA and joining a group. I'm a good guy sober. I'm a complete idiot when i'm not.

Sapling

You should move that over to the "Quotes" thread. I think that applies to most of us.

mattparadise

Yeah, that sucks. Just got to get back on the wagon and try again. It will take if you really want to change your life. Wishing you the best.
Glad to hear you've been avoiding AA.

sugarbear1

I just finished a conversation about this with my sponsor who has close to three decades of sobriety. I learned a lot in the conversation.

Start again. You can do it!

Hevyn

spqr - very proud of you for owning up to what happened. You sound ready to end all the drama and uncertainty. You can stay quit this time, & everything will begin to look brighter.

artsoul

Glad you're back, spqr!