Some anxiety
Some anxiety
I'll be ending day 6 tonight. Beginning day 7 tomorrow and will have to hurdle over the first weekend without being a warrior (in respect to drinking that is). I've been very back forth with my relations with God and my beliefs. I get scared, nervous, anxious about what is the point of all of this.
I wonder if it slightly exacerbated by some minor W/D from alcohol. (I was never a constant, day to day drinker, just sporadic binging so I know I won't suffer from major W/D. Also, I have gone over a month without alcohol before with no danger) Also, I have recently broke up with my girlfriend for some personal time, soul searching and to avoid alcohol.
I'm just having a lot of mixed feelings. One day I am glad to be alive, but then the next I feel its an endless cycle. I am in no way thinking of suicide, but I freak myself out a bit on wondering what is in store for us....all those typical life mysteries. I figure once I am far, far away from alcohol, my reality will be improving, and I will enjoy life a lil more day by day.
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I wonder if it slightly exacerbated by some minor W/D from alcohol. (I was never a constant, day to day drinker, just sporadic binging so I know I won't suffer from major W/D. Also, I have gone over a month without alcohol before with no danger) Also, I have recently broke up with my girlfriend for some personal time, soul searching and to avoid alcohol.
I'm just having a lot of mixed feelings. One day I am glad to be alive, but then the next I feel its an endless cycle. I am in no way thinking of suicide, but I freak myself out a bit on wondering what is in store for us....all those typical life mysteries. I figure once I am far, far away from alcohol, my reality will be improving, and I will enjoy life a lil more day by day.
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P.S. It gives me some boost posting here and trying to help change each other's lives for the better. We are all on the same team, no matter what religion, race, sex, age, ect.
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