AloneAlot

Woah...this is day 4......emergancy morning for Dad...I had to get up take dad to the Dr and then to the hospital for tests....but Im so sick and nauseated and my life seems so much more confusing when my head is sober.... i am forced to look at all that I am sad and depressed about. All the things that overwhelm me are very VIVID...like my world just went from blurry to clear and overwhelmingly full of crap to do and deal with.. How much I hate my life, things Im really sad about are in my face this morning...Im having a hard time here. Its making me think of wanting to die. To turn it all off, and go to bed. No I dont want to drink, just make it thru this day but without having to move...I want to vegatate...be like butter and melt into my sofa with a good book or numb out on a movie....watching the clock and wishing I didnt have to go to college for a class tonight.

changemyway

This is day three for me and I can relate to a lot of what you are saying. My favorite time right now is when everyone in the house is asleep and I can sit and watch TV or read a book. Maybe try doing something nice for yourself that you enjoy and take your mind off things for a while.

I hope your dad feels better.

AloneAlot

Thank u changemyway'.....im good and alone till about 5...( its 2 now....) class might do me some good) i think ill eat..n surf the tv or net....lol