Dazee

I made it almost 12 days. I felt better than I have in a long time. I relapsed Saturday evening. The cravings were so bad, the worst I have ever had.
I'm now back on day 2. Upset with myself, naturally. But I've also tried to take the advice I have given others who have relapsed. Learn from it. So I've been trying to look at what happened objectively and it scares me. Willpower is just not enough. I'm not comfortable with AA, but I have to do something more than what I am doing now. It's hard to post this, but I have to get honest to get healthy. Thanks for reading.:rotfxko

BillyPilgrim

Hey Dazee, pick yourself up, dust yourself down and start all over again. For me the drink will not win again like it has last time.

GirlFromCO

Hey Dazee, glad you're back with us. I'm sorry to hear that you drank on Saturday. It would probably help to have a plan in place to cope with your cravings the next time they come. Dee has some good info on urge surfing that helped me a lot. That in combination with delaying my first drink for a day, or even just an hour when it was really hard has helped me get through some really tough times.

justhadenough

hi, sorry to hear you've had a bad time. If you are not comfortable with AA maybe one of the secular approaches may help. i've just read Rational Recovery which talks about AVRT. I found it very helpful. Different things worth for different people but for the price of a book off Amazon its worth a try. Good luck.

Dazee

I was thinking AVRT might be helpful. I'm also intrigued by urge surfing. Thanks!

Dee74

Welcome back Dazee

the urge surfing links are here:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...e-surfing.html

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Dazee

Thanks Dee. I've been on SR most of the day (slow at work). I'm not giving up. But need to have some help with a blaster of a craving that hit so I'm prepared next time.

katrinka

I think being honest with yourself is a great tool, it has helped me a lot. Stay strong.

IndaMiricale

Good job on getting right back on it

lhenderson

We do not live in a perfect world and none of us are perfect.You slipped it happens. Your back on track and that's whats important.Dare to live the life you have always dreamed of for yourself go forward and make your dreams happen.

gaffo

Keep trying. You'll make it!