Woke up happy and fairly optimistic
sobriety date 5-2-12
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Woke up happy and fairly optimistic
For those that have read my posts lately you know how I've been in a deep, dark, scary depression. When I woke today it has cleared somewhat and I felt...dare I say it..."good". I did yoga last night- first time in over a week I have exercised. Today we have 5th grade Shabbat services for my son, then pinewood derby for scouts, and I invited some neighbors over tonight. I was feeling anxious over everything today, but today I am confident the day will go well and I will enjoy my get-together tonight sober.
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I have suffered depression my entire life and was even hospitalized in high school bc of it. I don't know what the story is on it now, but it could be my brain trying to get back to "normal" after vicodin use. I have no idea. Or it could just be one of my "spells". Either way it sucks, and today I feel free...light...it's wonderful! I wrote it down in my journal so that in the future I will know that it is possible to feel good
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I have been very tired, but think that is due to the depression. I have no pain issues for which I took the pills so I am not dealing with that...thank god! Have had headaches off and on, but physically I am feeling fine. No major issues.
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Good, and hopefully this is the beginning of you feeling better.
In my case, I have to treat my lifelong depression in order to level the playing field. Even so, I have periods when I start to slip into the abyss. And, for me, it's SO important to me to maintain optimism at those times, because I don't want to slip back into depression. And, yay for yoga. I love it.
In my case, I have to treat my lifelong depression in order to level the playing field. Even so, I have periods when I start to slip into the abyss. And, for me, it's SO important to me to maintain optimism at those times, because I don't want to slip back into depression. And, yay for yoga. I love it.
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Originally Posted by Anna 
Good, and hopefully this is the beginning of you feeling better.
In my case, I have to treat my lifelong depression in order to level the playing field. Even so, I have periods when I start to slip into the abyss. And, for me, it's SO important to me to maintain optimism at those times, because I don't want to slip back into depression. And, yay for yoga. I love it.
In my case, I have to treat my lifelong depression in order to level the playing field. Even so, I have periods when I start to slip into the abyss. And, for me, it's SO important to me to maintain optimism at those times, because I don't want to slip back into depression. And, yay for yoga. I love it.
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I'm happy to hear that!
This time of the year is generally very hard for me. I think when most people get the "winter blues" those of us who are already predispositioned to depression slip off the deep end even more.
I too felt really good today though, slept in and I'm just enjoying the fact that the sun's out.
This time of the year is generally very hard for me. I think when most people get the "winter blues" those of us who are already predispositioned to depression slip off the deep end even more.
I too felt really good today though, slept in and I'm just enjoying the fact that the sun's out.
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Made it through my first party sober. I had some neighbors over tonight who were all drinking. Early in the evening when they were pouring their drinks I thought I was going to cry, but as the night went on I realized I was still having a blast sober. These are my closest friends and I enjoyed them as much sober. Also, when they left, I was able to clean the kitchen! So used to waking up to a dirty house after a party!
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