Innerchild

I can't go back to drinking to numb my feelings I am just so hurt and there is nothing I can do about it. I dont like feeling at all.

evilhalf

I know its hard and its sucks
Just hang in their! Together we can!

WantToHeal

Feeling is life, child! It does get easier, it does get better, but we must take the good along with the bad.

I'm glad you're back, and still posting here. Keep moving forward!

ontherightpath

Inner, anger merely covers up hurt. It seems you have maybe moved past the aner and can now start to deal with the hurt. Anticipation has a way of making things worse until they happen. Relax, take a deep breath and consider this an opportunity to take control of your path!!! Will be thinking of you!! Take care!

Innerchild

Thanks, I am going to take a dance class and lift some weights at my gym before my womans AA meeting tonight dancing has always been a healthy outlet for me.

nel68

Innerchild, I hope you get feeling better, you have alot of support here Let yourself feel a little then after a moment or two, take a deep breath... step outside and take another deep breath. Then do something for you.... like a hot bath or paint your nails or read, listen to some fun music(it's the 80's music for me)go for a walk anything, that will maybe move you towards a happier mood. I to have notice when I don't drink I will start to cry maybe over my family or missing my mom or regrets but I do let myself feel it now. I just allow so much time maybe 15 min. or so then I take a deep breath and get moving. Now I may do this several times a week or just a few...but I think it is good to let yourself feel, to me it feels like a cleansing my body needs...instead of stifling our feelings with alcohol. Hang in there girlie

Innerchild

Thanks Nel good idea. I always found nineties music has always changed my mood. I also bought a small bottle of my favorite Victoria Secret body spray for 75% off yesterday so small things like that make me happy lol. Just got to be kind to myself.

Threshold

Innerchild,

Hugs, yes, it hurts real bad sometimes. SO happy that you are finding positive ways to take care of yourself. Numbing the pain never really works, letting it ride and not getting caught up in it's drama is a much better option.

Yesterday I was pretty mired in hurt, and I had to periodically remind myself to breathe, relax my clenched fist and jaw, and let it go.

I likened it to being in labor during childbirth. It hurts, but breathing and relaxing make it easier and quicker. Hope I'm giving birth to a happier me.

quitforme79

Hang in there innerchild...i've been sobbing like a baby this first sober week. Unfortunately, we have to feel the feelings to let them go. I think it's wonderful you are going to the gym and a meeting. Healthy coping skills right there!! I have been running everyday and really does help. ((hugs))

Dee74

I didn't like feeling either - not at first - but I got used to it..

I'd never be without it now...even the sad stuff makes me treasure the good stuff, y'know?

Hope you feel better soon tho IC
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Linz

Sadness, fear, anger, irritability, confusion, cloudiness.
Those are all some of the things that chase me back to drinking during the first few days of abstaining from alcohol.
I wish I could just deal with them like any normal person instead.

Point is, I know how you feel.
Keep up the sobriety work though, it is far more worth it than resorting back to numbing and temporary ignorance to the facts of life.

Tigger41

I hated it too but it passes. You don't want to drink and have to deal with that as well.

Hang in there - it gets better.

surrenderordie

keep your chin up its strange that the feelings that my drinking were hiding was what i was looking for all along go figure!

Anna

Yes, it does hurt, but you can deal with it.

Try to remember that it's just a feeling - it's not you. You can feel the feeling, recognize it, and then let it go.

Innerchild

No matter how painful things can feel its sure a lot better than hiding feelings with booze. Thanks guys

1undone

Oh am I so with you Innerchild! Wheeewwww

Innerchild

Wheeeee!!!

jocata

My thoughts and prayers are with you innerchild.

God bless.