Sober Second Thoughts
Sober Second Thoughts
I was full of hubris after my first 30 days, but now around Day 40, I'm beginning to realize that I still have the same problems that impelled me to drink.
I'm not going to go back to medicating myself with alcohol. Instead, I'm going to try to heal myself so that I can function without needing to numb myself. I may be aiming high.
But to go on with, I'm reminding myself of traditional AA wisdom - First Things First, Easy Does It, and so on (I've always been too shy to attend AA meetings but I've been around AAers enough to pick up some of its wisdom) - reminding myself of my Rational Recovery Big Plan (I'm never drinking again, and I'm never going to change my mind) and getting counseling to try to heal the parts of myself that find it painful to live sober.
I'm a little frightened, but also excited at the prospect of a life informed by something other than pain, and fear. And I can't think of anything more worthwhile to attempt to achieve.
I'm not going to go back to medicating myself with alcohol. Instead, I'm going to try to heal myself so that I can function without needing to numb myself. I may be aiming high.
But to go on with, I'm reminding myself of traditional AA wisdom - First Things First, Easy Does It, and so on (I've always been too shy to attend AA meetings but I've been around AAers enough to pick up some of its wisdom) - reminding myself of my Rational Recovery Big Plan (I'm never drinking again, and I'm never going to change my mind) and getting counseling to try to heal the parts of myself that find it painful to live sober.
I'm a little frightened, but also excited at the prospect of a life informed by something other than pain, and fear. And I can't think of anything more worthwhile to attempt to achieve.
You have a great attitude Riel. It's true, just because we get sober doesn't mean everything's coming up roses! Same old bills, work, relationships, stress...all carry on. But we can choose a better way to deal now!
Congratulations on your sober time
Congratulations on your sober time
Yes, stopping drinking doesn't solve the problems right away. There are usually issues that we have to deal with in order to get our lives on track. Good for you for recognizing this!
I've used this before but I think it works...when I got into recovery, a metaphorical tide went out and I stopped drowning...but I saw the great mass of driftwood and debris my drinking and drugging had been covering up.
It took me a while to clean that debris up...but I did it...one piece at a time
you can too Riel - congrats on 40 days
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It took me a while to clean that debris up...but I did it...one piece at a time
you can too Riel - congrats on 40 days
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Riel,
I'm in the same spot you are. The initial "novelty" of sobriety has wore off. I'm now in the process of dealing with my demons that made me feel that alcohol needed to be a central theme in my life. This is the hard part.
I'm in the same spot you are. The initial "novelty" of sobriety has wore off. I'm now in the process of dealing with my demons that made me feel that alcohol needed to be a central theme in my life. This is the hard part.
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