needtostop1

Had that I couldn't keep it together this weekend. My withdrawals are not worth drinking. Sobriety.. . That's my new life. Day 1. Hoping for no anxiety tonight.

Hevyn

It sounds like you're ready, needtostop. I got so tired of feeling sick and miserable, wondering what I'd said or done during a binge. It just wasn't worth it anymore. I wanted my life back.

I know you can have the new life you're wishing for. We all understand how you feel. Please keep reading and posting here. We care about you.

needtostop1

Thank you very much! I need it here....I want my life back!

Fubarcdn

If you have to try, try, and try again until you get where you want to go.
Never give up and as always stay positive.

Anna

I'm glad you're back and working on your recovery.

Pigtails

Welcome back. You can do it. I'm rooting for you!!

needtostop1

Thank you! Thank YOU!

needtostop1

I need to be sober for me...this group sure helps me stay in tact!

desertsong

Sounds like you've reached the point of wanting NOT to drink more than you want TO drink. That's where it all begins.

Congrats on Day 1!! Good days are ahead!

needtostop1

Thanks again! I need some sleep....the insomnia is horrible.

TheOjibway84

I was thinking the same thing 4 months ago. I was sick and tired of being hungover and wanting to drink more despite knowing what would happen if I continued to drink. I was at work today and just thought about what happened summer of 2011 I was a wreck and I was drinking for 4 days pretending I was having fun when I wasn't because I couldn't even function or even walk normally. I rarely slept during those days and I kept getting more drunk. I was all alone in my basement room drinking and then going out. I was soooo sick that I went to this bar that opened early, served breakfast and waited till they could legally sell me booze. I did a shot and of course I was 3 days plastered and for some reason I could act normal when I wasn't. That first shot made me run to the washroom and puke it back out, only to get up clean my mouth and ask for more booze. My belly was burning like heck and thats when I eased down on the drinking and was afraid to actually have more. That was not it though I continued as soon as I got home and then a house party occurred and I proceeded to drink more, landlord was hammered and we danced together to her music till 6am and then the puking all day started and wouldn't let up. It was scary as heck so I know how you feel. Stay strong, it makes me feel sick when I think about what I have done, but then breathe a sigh of relief as I am sober today and have someone special in my life in which I do not wish for her to ever see me be plastered as everyone else did, I wasn't nice. When I didn't get MY way I'd get ugly. I'd never want her to see that. ever... So do what you need to do to get back on your feet, get to a meeting, or call for some help. Whatever helps you cope. Good luck

ACT10Npack

Good luck