Am i grieving?..
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Am i grieving?..
Hi all, i am on day 14, and need some help/advice.
I only got to day 7 previously,( 2 years ago) so this is new to me, i am sleeping well, eating well, always have ate well but recently shed a stone, and am on a non dairy diet.
I am feeling really down, and fed up today, like i have achieved nothing, could i be grieving for my buddy" POISON"?
You all know the list: am i missing;
bloodshot eyes.
empty purse.
feeling like a zombie, while still functioning at work, etc.
Hurting my family.
being furtive and secretive.
lying. the list goes on, will it get better, and when.
I only got to day 7 previously,( 2 years ago) so this is new to me, i am sleeping well, eating well, always have ate well but recently shed a stone, and am on a non dairy diet.
I am feeling really down, and fed up today, like i have achieved nothing, could i be grieving for my buddy" POISON"?
You all know the list: am i missing;
bloodshot eyes.
empty purse.
feeling like a zombie, while still functioning at work, etc.
Hurting my family.
being furtive and secretive.
lying. the list goes on, will it get better, and when.
Choosing Life
Join Date: Jun 2009
Location: Montana
Posts: 1,435
You're grieving the loss of your buddy. I'm going through the same thing (Day 10 for me). Just before I got sober, the same thought kept going through my head: "If I don't have booze, what do I have?" Now I see how ridiculous that thinking was because I have SO much ... I just never saw it through my alcoholic haze. But I'm still in that early stage of having a hard time envisioning my life without alcohol.
Just remember, a REAL friend isn't destructive and cruel, and a real friend doesn't destroy your life and take away everything that matters to you. And a real friend doesn't try to kill you. That's what I tell myself every day when I'm missing that "buddy." I don't need friends like that.
Just remember, a REAL friend isn't destructive and cruel, and a real friend doesn't destroy your life and take away everything that matters to you. And a real friend doesn't try to kill you. That's what I tell myself every day when I'm missing that "buddy." I don't need friends like that.
Choosing Life
Join Date: Jun 2009
Location: Montana
Posts: 1,435
You're grieving the loss of your buddy. I'm going through the same thing (Day 10 for me). Just before I got sober, the same thought kept going through my head: "If I don't have booze, what do I have?" Now I see how ridiculous that thinking was because I have SO much ... I just never saw it through my alcoholic haze. But I'm still in that early stage of having a hard time envisioning my life without alcohol.
Just remember, a REAL friend isn't destructive and cruel, and a real friend doesn't destroy your life and take away everything that matters to you. And a real friend doesn't try to kill you. That's what I tell myself every day when I'm missing that "buddy." I don't need friends like that.
Just remember, a REAL friend isn't destructive and cruel, and a real friend doesn't destroy your life and take away everything that matters to you. And a real friend doesn't try to kill you. That's what I tell myself every day when I'm missing that "buddy." I don't need friends like that.
One Foot in Front of the Other
Join Date: Sep 2009
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Originally Posted by whitehorses 
You all know the list: am i missing;
bloodshot eyes.
empty purse.
feeling like a zombie, while still functioning at work, etc.
Hurting my family.
being furtive and secretive.
lying. the list goes on, will it get better, and when.
bloodshot eyes.
empty purse.
feeling like a zombie, while still functioning at work, etc.
Hurting my family.
being furtive and secretive.
lying. the list goes on, will it get better, and when.
Chin up! You deserve it!
Powerless over Alcohol
Join Date: May 2011
Location: Trudging the Road to Happy Destiny!
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Welcome back,
I hear ya , I let myself miss the thing that tried to kill me also sometimes.
Cunning , baffling , and powerful it is . But your stronger than it, cause you came here and talked. Keep going forward it will get better and the "buddy" you will learn to kick him out of the house for good.
Good love, Inda
I hear ya , I let myself miss the thing that tried to kill me also sometimes.
Cunning , baffling , and powerful it is . But your stronger than it, cause you came here and talked. Keep going forward it will get better and the "buddy" you will learn to kick him out of the house for good.
Good love, Inda
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Join Date: Dec 2008
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This is why recovery/sobriety is so important. We can't step back and figure out what's wrong with us so long as we're 'treating ourselves' with alcohol. It's a terrible cycle - drinking because you're unhappy and being unhappy because you drink. It's no way to live.
Congrats on day 14! I'm on day 12.
Congrats on day 14! I'm on day 12.
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Probably - I wrote a letter to alcohol as well. My "best friend" she's a manipulative, destructive, bad friend. But I still grieved the loss. Now I've packed up all her stuff and sent her on her way. I have better friends now and there's a lot more space in my life with it gone.
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