goalofsobriety

I went out last night after staying sober for 2 months. I told myself I could have 2 drinks. Of course I could not keep this promise to myself. I got elbowed in the nose on the dance floor, smoked a cigarette after quitting 2 months ago (I just cannot drink without smoking I've realized) and now I'm nursing a hangover coupled with crippling anxiety when I should be out enjoying this beautiful day.

What is wrong this this picture?

It's time to call it quits yet again...and mean it this time.

dawnrunner

Well you did stay sober for two months, so that's a wonderful achievement. And you quite smoking, so congratulations on doing that very difficult thing too.

Now you can think over what happened to lead up to last night, and start fresh. Don't beat yourself up.. Just acknowledge what happened and analyze how to make it not happen again.

It can still be a very happy new year!

ovrock

Well you relaxed and was overconfident. Just learn from it and start over, all is not lost. You are here right? Means you feel remorse... Little bump on the road..

keithj

Did you not mean it last time?

If you're anything like me, I suspect you meant with all the sincerity you could muster. There came a point in my alcoholism, where the most intense desire in the world to stop for good was of absolutely no use to me. I lacked the power to stay sober.

Through the 12 Steps of AA, I found a solution.

Ghostlight

Many of us have stumbled on our road to recovery.
Don't be too hard on yourself. It took me years to quit. I hope you don't have to go through the nightmare I did. I now know the only thing that works for me is complete abstinance.

Today's a new day. Learn from your mistake and move forward.

Best to you.

Dee74

welcome back GOS.
I found out there's not such thing as 'a couple of drinks' for me either.

I struggled against that for years - finally accepting it opened up a whole new ballgame for me