Well, I made it. Thanks to you guys.
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Well, I made it. Thanks to you guys.
I just wanted to thank everyone who helped me stay sober while I was visiting my family for the holidays. At certain points it got very hard, such as the night I posted a thread. Reading everyone's words of encouragement and wisdom was so helpful to me.
And, I did it.
I made it through the entire vacation with my family without drinking, despite the stress, despite the fact that many of my close family members/boyfriend who came with me on the trip drank constantly around me, and despite a bunch of feelings that were really overwhelming and emotional at times.
This is really friggin' hard. In many ways I couldn't wait to get back to my life here, so that I could keep working on my goals of stability and peace, where I have time to myself and where I have AA meetings and AA friends. Sometimes I started to feel like a freak for "needing" a group but at other times I realized there is something wrong with me and I just don't fit in (at least right now) with "normal" drinkers, if they are even normal, I don't know, and I need the protection and support of AA for now. And I am also glad that I am building a life for myself that feels comfortable and sane, whereas in the past I always felt that the life I had was chaotic and insane! I am grateful for the support of the people in AA and on this site. It has helped me stay sober for 58 days, including a very hard 10 day vacation where I was out of my normal comfort zone. Thank you again.
And, I did it.
I made it through the entire vacation with my family without drinking, despite the stress, despite the fact that many of my close family members/boyfriend who came with me on the trip drank constantly around me, and despite a bunch of feelings that were really overwhelming and emotional at times.This is really friggin' hard. In many ways I couldn't wait to get back to my life here, so that I could keep working on my goals of stability and peace, where I have time to myself and where I have AA meetings and AA friends. Sometimes I started to feel like a freak for "needing" a group but at other times I realized there is something wrong with me and I just don't fit in (at least right now) with "normal" drinkers, if they are even normal, I don't know, and I need the protection and support of AA for now. And I am also glad that I am building a life for myself that feels comfortable and sane, whereas in the past I always felt that the life I had was chaotic and insane! I am grateful for the support of the people in AA and on this site. It has helped me stay sober for 58 days, including a very hard 10 day vacation where I was out of my normal comfort zone. Thank you again.
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Good for you, Pigtails! 58 days is great! 
There's nothing wrong with you.
And, you will fit in, but understandably it's still uncomfortable. I think I was at about 3 months sober before I was able to spend time with people who were drinking.
There's nothing wrong with you.
And, you will fit in, but understandably it's still uncomfortable. I think I was at about 3 months sober before I was able to spend time with people who were drinking.
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I'm happy for you Pigtails...Congrats on 58 days and the journey you are taking...You know...The only friends I really have right now are AA friends...My drinking buddies are the past for me...I don't think they miss me a bit....Maybe I'll run into some of them in a meeting some day...Enjoy the ride...It's a great way to live.
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Originally Posted by langkah 
Excellent!
Next...Superbowl.
Next...Superbowl.
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