Well, That Was Disappointing
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Well, That Was Disappointing
Get your wet noodles out.
For no particular reason, after a week of soberness, I rewarded myself with a couple of German beers and a few Guinness stouts.
It was strange, though. I actually noticed myself on the edge of binge drinking. Once one top was popped and the bottle was empty, another one took its place.
Also strange...I didn't get drunker than a bicycle. An hour or so after drinking, I felt almost sober.
I stayed up too late, and got up too early. I'm disappointed that I drank, and I find it interesting that I didn't enjoy it more. I sorta felt like I was going through the motions. Weird, huh?
Needless to say, I don't guess drinking is for me. It's just not as enjoyable anymore, and I know it's little more than flavored poison, IMO.
I suppose I should now join the January class.
For no particular reason, after a week of soberness, I rewarded myself with a couple of German beers and a few Guinness stouts.
It was strange, though. I actually noticed myself on the edge of binge drinking. Once one top was popped and the bottle was empty, another one took its place.
Also strange...I didn't get drunker than a bicycle. An hour or so after drinking, I felt almost sober.
I stayed up too late, and got up too early. I'm disappointed that I drank, and I find it interesting that I didn't enjoy it more. I sorta felt like I was going through the motions. Weird, huh?
Needless to say, I don't guess drinking is for me. It's just not as enjoyable anymore, and I know it's little more than flavored poison, IMO.
I suppose I should now join the January class.
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Thanks. I'm planning on leaving the Dave Ramsey forum and spending more time here. I get much more support and encouragement here, and I have developed some doubt in the validity of some of his advice.
Funny how that began to take shape when I was sober, huh?
I hope to develop and maintain friendships here in 2012 and beyond.
This is my plan.
Funny how that began to take shape when I was sober, huh?
I hope to develop and maintain friendships here in 2012 and beyond.
This is my plan.
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Best of luck... it isn't the easiest thing in the world to do. But, once you do it... and truly do it for yourself... you will notice a change in yourself you never thought possible. You will enjoy life again without drinking.
Good luck!
Good luck!
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The same thing happened to me the last time I relapsed. Couldn't figure out why I was drinking because it didn't make me drunk anymore (just stupid) and I really didn't enjoy it. It had just become a habit that I had gotten used to doing.
It's a good thing that you recognized that about yourself though. Remember how that felt as you move through each day of your sobriety and keep coming here for the support you need! Good luck!
It's a good thing that you recognized that about yourself though. Remember how that felt as you move through each day of your sobriety and keep coming here for the support you need! Good luck!
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Welcome back, fdm.
You know, the awesome side to your relapse is that it took you no time to figure out that you didn't want to go back to full time drinking and you decided to turn things around again very quickly.
That really deserves a pat on the back. I fully believe that all my former relapses have been valuable lessons for me to learn from, steps on my road back to sobriety. So I no longer beat myself up over my past relapses, I have learned from them all.
Btw, what is the Dave Ramsey forum?
You know, the awesome side to your relapse is that it took you no time to figure out that you didn't want to go back to full time drinking and you decided to turn things around again very quickly.
That really deserves a pat on the back. I fully believe that all my former relapses have been valuable lessons for me to learn from, steps on my road back to sobriety. So I no longer beat myself up over my past relapses, I have learned from them all.
Btw, what is the Dave Ramsey forum?
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The last time I relapsed I got drunker quicker. Only took 1/6th of a bottle as compared to half when I was drinking every day. But like you, I didn't enjoy it a bit. I knew I was acting stupid whereas before I was clueless. And I passed out by 8PM and woke up feeling like **** the next day; when I drank every day I never had a hangover.
I hope I can still remember that feeling next time the cravings hit and that I am able to think with a clear head.
I hope I can still remember that feeling next time the cravings hit and that I am able to think with a clear head.
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Originally Posted by Frankie12 
Welcome back, fdm.
You know, the awesome side to your relapse is that it took you no time to figure out that you didn't want to go back to full time drinking and you decided to turn things around again very quickly.
That really deserves a pat on the back. I fully believe that all my former relapses have been valuable lessons for me to learn from, steps on my road back to sobriety. So I no longer beat myself up over my past relapses, I have learned from them all.
Btw, what is the Dave Ramsey forum?
You know, the awesome side to your relapse is that it took you no time to figure out that you didn't want to go back to full time drinking and you decided to turn things around again very quickly.
That really deserves a pat on the back. I fully believe that all my former relapses have been valuable lessons for me to learn from, steps on my road back to sobriety. So I no longer beat myself up over my past relapses, I have learned from them all.
Btw, what is the Dave Ramsey forum?
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FDM,
Sounds like a good plan to me. I know for sure I would not have gotten here, Day 16 without all the support and advice from the girls and boys on this Thread. Hang on in there and i'm sure we (well me at least!) will do our best to keep you on the true path. That path leads to happiness, yeah truly it really does lead to happiness. Put all those old fashioned 2011 ideas to grass, you don't need them anymore.
Best regards
Stuart
Sounds like a good plan to me. I know for sure I would not have gotten here, Day 16 without all the support and advice from the girls and boys on this Thread. Hang on in there and i'm sure we (well me at least!) will do our best to keep you on the true path. That path leads to happiness, yeah truly it really does lead to happiness. Put all those old fashioned 2011 ideas to grass, you don't need them anymore.
Best regards
Stuart
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