Hello SR friends. I'm back.
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Hello SR friends. I'm back.
I kept dancing with the wine over the last few months. Continued to think I could drink in moderation, keep it to the weekends, etc. The dance has finally ended and I now fully understand that I have a problem with alcohol. I have quit in the past, said I was never going to drink again, only to return to the very thing I hated.
It's as if I needed these last few months to really hate the wine, I mean really despise the stuff so I will never return to it. My pattern always leads me back to drinking almost a bottle most nights and obsessing over it throughout the day.
I'm at day 5 now and feeling great about recovery. But I do have a cold now. I haven't been sick in months and now I quit drinking and catch a cold. I remember reading about that on SR. Can someone shed some light on why the body get's sick sometimes when you stop poisoning it?
Anyway, thanks for reading. I look forward to reading more posts and being more active on SR in the days ahead.
It's as if I needed these last few months to really hate the wine, I mean really despise the stuff so I will never return to it. My pattern always leads me back to drinking almost a bottle most nights and obsessing over it throughout the day.
I'm at day 5 now and feeling great about recovery. But I do have a cold now. I haven't been sick in months and now I quit drinking and catch a cold. I remember reading about that on SR. Can someone shed some light on why the body get's sick sometimes when you stop poisoning it?
Anyway, thanks for reading. I look forward to reading more posts and being more active on SR in the days ahead.
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Sarah....Welcome back.. I understand the love hate relationship very well. Like you, the obsession part during the day, and then the rationalizing it was ok in the evenings.
Keep reading and posting here. It is great form of support.
Jim
Keep reading and posting here. It is great form of support.
Jim
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Hi I am at the same place just starting off its a nightmare having this illness dont think my body can sleep tonight. I am supporting you just ton know someone is going through w/d. Living life clean will be hard. Hope to keep in touch. TJ
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Originally Posted by Zebra1275 
Welcome back. So what are you going to do different this time?
I will not drink anymore. That's what I'm going to do. I will not entertain the thoughts or cravings. I will not purchase wine.
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Originally Posted by sarah1414
Zebra, I knew someone would ask this and I even pictured your zebra avatar as the one who might!! I appreciate your question.
I will not drink anymore. That's what I'm going to do. I will not entertain the thoughts or cravings. I will not purchase wine.
I will not drink anymore. That's what I'm going to do. I will not entertain the thoughts or cravings. I will not purchase wine.
Lovely photo ? Where is that?
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Originally Posted by daphne
I too been dancing with wine back n forward , hope you achieve your sobriety
Lovely photo ? Where is that?
Lovely photo ? Where is that?
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It's as if I needed these last few months to really hate the wine, I mean really despise the stuff so I will never return to it.
Glad you are back!
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Welcome Back, Sarah...hopefully, just not buying it or thinking about it will be enough for you.
I, OTOH, had to change everything about myself, change up the habit. You may want to devise a back up plan. Isn't easy but glad to see you are back and trying. Wishing you peace and strength.
I, OTOH, had to change everything about myself, change up the habit. You may want to devise a back up plan. Isn't easy but glad to see you are back and trying. Wishing you peace and strength.
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I did the dance too Sarah!
My attempts to stop drinking would get closer and closer together and the time drinking became shorter and shorter but when I was drinking at the end.....WOW! Hard-core! Everytime I would start drinking I would hate it more and more until I finally just stopped and everything people say on here really, really made sense. Everything clicked, you know?
Now I just worry about the day I am living and leave the future alone. I have set up a small support system and come on SR alot.
Congrats on choosing to be sober....it is so worth it!!!
My attempts to stop drinking would get closer and closer together and the time drinking became shorter and shorter but when I was drinking at the end.....WOW! Hard-core! Everytime I would start drinking I would hate it more and more until I finally just stopped and everything people say on here really, really made sense. Everything clicked, you know?
Now I just worry about the day I am living and leave the future alone. I have set up a small support system and come on SR alot.
Congrats on choosing to be sober....it is so worth it!!!
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