1 Year! Thank You!
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1 Year! Thank You!
Well, tomorrow when I wake up it will be one year without a drink. Sometimes when I think about it, it seems like yesterday, and other times it feels like I have spent my days running marathons in my head......some days have been easy, and others extremely difficult. I have been divorced, moved into a new home, watched my kids move 3 hours away, and tried to sort all of this loss out without drinking. And maybe one of the biggest (and best) losses, has been the loss of alcohol in my life. It sounds crazy, but I mourn that loss just like all of the others.....it was that important to me......
Sometimes I think I can handle a couple of drinks...it will give me something to do and take the edge off...but deep down I know that is not possible. That is when I come back here and read what you all have written and gain strength from knowing that I am not the only one dealing with this. This place and all of you have been incredibly important to my first year of sobriety - so thank you. I am getting emotional as I type this.......It is a much different emotion than some of my first posts - the despair and shame that was a part of my earlier emotions are now replaced by gratitude and hope. But perhaps most importantly, and most difficult, I am allowing myself to feel those emotions and not drowning them away like I used to. Thank you all......
I am not sure why reaching one year was so important to me....I have kept a running daily tally on my calendar.....For now I think I will continue to do that. It gives me a sense of accomplishment to mark each passing day as sober....It helps keep the past and all of those awful things that came with drinking in perspective....a reminder of all of the pain that it caused. I still need that reminder, because even with a year past, I am still mourning all of these losses....and it will take as long as it takes. And it will happen without drinking and with the tremendous support of everyone on here......
Did I say thank you?? Thank you.
Sometimes I think I can handle a couple of drinks...it will give me something to do and take the edge off...but deep down I know that is not possible. That is when I come back here and read what you all have written and gain strength from knowing that I am not the only one dealing with this. This place and all of you have been incredibly important to my first year of sobriety - so thank you. I am getting emotional as I type this.......It is a much different emotion than some of my first posts - the despair and shame that was a part of my earlier emotions are now replaced by gratitude and hope. But perhaps most importantly, and most difficult, I am allowing myself to feel those emotions and not drowning them away like I used to. Thank you all......
I am not sure why reaching one year was so important to me....I have kept a running daily tally on my calendar.....For now I think I will continue to do that. It gives me a sense of accomplishment to mark each passing day as sober....It helps keep the past and all of those awful things that came with drinking in perspective....a reminder of all of the pain that it caused. I still need that reminder, because even with a year past, I am still mourning all of these losses....and it will take as long as it takes. And it will happen without drinking and with the tremendous support of everyone on here......
Did I say thank you?? Thank you.
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musicman66...thank you very much for your post. These posts written by folks such as yourself provide a great deal of motivate to individuals like myself who are at the beginning of the journey of self discovery.
I might be the first to say CONGRATULATIONS, but I'm sure I won't be the last.
I might be the first to say CONGRATULATIONS, but I'm sure I won't be the last.
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Originally Posted by musicman66 
It is a much different emotion than some of my first posts - the despair and shame that was a part of my earlier emotions are now replaced by gratitude and hope.
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