Seared

Throwing up and withdrawing again, I've done this a thousand times, it feels like, but I never learn my lesson. Once again, I'm walking around the house with an empty yogurt tub to puke in, in case I don't make it to the toilet in time.

There is a part of me that doesn't want to give up drinking. The trick is, I have to give it up even though there is always going to be a voice that doesn't want to.

1undone

That doesn't sound like fun at all! Write more and when your killer voice acts up read your posts here!!!! Hope you feel better!!!

ReadyAndAble

Just keep that yogurt tub handy. Look at it every time that voice tries to convince you that drinking makes things better. Because that is where drinking leads you—and it will get worse if you let it.

Hope you feel better, and never go through this again.

soberwingz

That voice will be more and more silent as time goes by....

I know it seems so hard right now. Just know that it WILL get better.You can live the sober life you deserve...that is your natural state. Hang in there and know you can count on us for support.

Gerbosko

Check out this thread I made.

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-pointers.html

chebella

Me vomiting too... but nothing much is coming out so I make it to the toilet in time. And I understand about having a part of you that does not want to give up drinking.

Ghostlight

Isn't drinking fun. Puking all day? Beleive me, it only gets worse.
I hope that voice goes away, or, you don't listen to it.

Best to you.

Dee74

Like others have said - this is not the worst, by a long shot...alcoholism is progressive.
Whatever little spark you have to quit now, I advise you to fan it.

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Anna

That's right, it will get worse unless you stop.

I hope you decide to live a sober life.

Saliena

Have you considered going to a meeting? Or talking to someone face to face?

Saliena

RobbyRobot

You know, that voice trying to get you to pickup is not always gonna be there nagging you forever more. As you live your new sober life, plenty of freedom, gratitude, and service will wash your drinking wants into your past where they eventually cease to be problematic. Easy to say I suppose, but there it is, so keep moving forward.

Don't wait until all you *want* is to quit drinking, because those times dont happen generally until *after* you have already quit drinking for awhile. Sobriety is wholly an experience, and not simply an earned possession or an award seemingly deserved.

Discover within yourself the strength to surrender to the impossible dilemma before you in facing your alcoholism: sobriety is the solution you want even if you dont want it. Have courage!

LaFemme

When I first got sober...I used the memories of vomitting to help shut HP the voice that wanted to drink. Worked really well.