dun

Thanks for all of the support and kind words. At least I made it through the holiday yesterday. I guess its a small step in the right direction. I would really like to know how to cope with all of this guilt and anxiety, I have really messed things up and I cant sleep or stop thinking about it. Which makes me want to drink or pop some pills. I know that is the wrong thing to do, but I am physically sick over what I have done and become. I went to AA a while back and that wasnt too good, but at this point I am willing to do whatever it takes. I am going to start calling insurance and some outpaitient rehab places this morning. I might have to call my boss and get things out in the open, I cant stand to be like this anymore. Thanks again for the support.

TheTinMan

Making it through the holiday was a huge step!

It looks like you have a pretty good plan going already, calling insurance, checking rehab.

I do like the fact that you say you are willing to do what ever it takes. Dun, you are moving forward and moving in the right direction.

The guilt and anxiety will melt with some time. There is no quick cure for it but staying sober and doing what it takes to live again will cure it!