Milly39

.....and I'm not sure how to feel.
One minute I am sad, devastated even and the next just so relieved.
He's gone to his parents...said he will look for his own place after Christmas.
So... let the healing begin.....
M.

LifeRecovery

Milly39-

I felt so similiar to what you described just a little over a year ago.

Sometimes I am still not sure what to feel, or how to feel or what my reactions looks like.

The best thing I have learned from all of this is self-care and self-compassion.

I am sending out kind thoughts to you in this time.

neferkamichael

My prayers go out to Milly.

Mightyqueen801

It takes time, but when you get through it--and through is the only way, there's no over, under or around--you will be an amazingly strong person.

caughtup

God be with you. Sometimes, I wish that were me, I too would feel the relief. Keep posting I know I will.

Me00

Milly, I hope you are doing all right.
One breath at a time!
I find that distraction techniques people use to quit drinking help me to quit thinking/worrying.
Best of Luck!

LostinBA

Milly39, if you are like I am, right now you are looking at this site every hour or so to get some words of encouragement. Well here is this hours from me. I'm sorry you are going through this. I'm in the same predicament. Everyone on here says it will get better, and all of these people can't be wrong. But I understand how you feel. Keep posting and getting strength from others.

chefmel30

Hi Millie. I too am having the same experience as you. I was with my boyfriend for 2 and a half years. This was after he has been sober for 5 years. I am not in the program myself but have gone to some alanon meetings. He is now gone too and I don't know what I am feeling. Some days I am relieved because I don't have to deal with what he goes through in meetings and others I am sad because I miss him. I have quite a bit of issues with the aa program sometimes and it makes life seem more complex and confusing to me. I am sorry to hear for your loss and I know how you feel. We all need others in our lives to talk to who are going through the very same thgs we are. Keep your head up and be strong.

Mel

Milly39

Thanks All - yes I find myself here everyday...reading and learning and some posting too.
I know I have done the right thing...but it's damn hard.
Am hanging in as best I can for now.
There is light at the end of the tunnel for the first time in ages and that feels good.
M.