Pigtails

Yesterday was a great day. I was productive at work and felt happy.

Today is a rough day. I don't get it. I guess I am heavily influenced by news that a girl I went to high school with hung herself. She was my sister's friend and two grades beneath me all throughout school (like my sister). I don't understand it because she was so nice, friendly, religious and seemed very happy. She was married and had a young son. She was in her late 20's. It just depresses me to the point that I can't concentrate.

I can't focus and feel very anxious. I set up an appointment at a sleep disorder center for my sleep disorder which is anxiety-related. I lucked out and they had a cancellation for tomorrow- otherwise I'd have to wait a month for an opening! I called my insurance to get approved for that and for my counseling which re-starts tomorrow. So I'm trying to be productive but otherwise I haven't been able to get much done. I hate my anxiety. I wish I could just focus and be productive.

I just needed to share. Thanks for listening.

Tigger41

Pigtails - day 9 was rough for me as well. So far the best day has been today (day 13) hang in there.

Jester1025

Sorry you are having a rough day Pigtails. But be proud of yourself that you have made it to day 9! I am only on day 4 myself, so day 9 seems like quite an accomplishment to me. Congrats!!!

Pigtails

Thank you for letting me know this. Hopefully it is something cyclical and I will be back to feeling better soon!

Pigtails

Thanks! Last time I made it to Day 17 and I was feeling so great. Each day was getting better. Then I blew it by drinking over Halloween weekend. Now I have ups and downs. I just want to consistently not drink no matter how I'm feeling, so, I'm happy that I'm not drinking. But I also hope I start feeling more "up" instead of "down." Congrats on 4 days!