If ever there were a 'reason'
If ever there were a 'reason'
to want to get smashed drunk, today would be it. My little diabetic dog Nikko had to be put to sleep today cause he was so bad off and getting worse by the hour. My vet, God bless him, came to the office specially for us. He said it was almost certainly diabetic neuropathy and tho there are meds for that, it would only be delaying the inevitable.
My little Nikko-boy was suffering - he hadn't gotten off my bed since Tuesday (except when I carried him outside to go potty). He was miserable and would give little cries, little yelps, so I know he was not happy. Then his kidneys started shutting down - he couldn't pee hardly at all. That in itself would be a painful death. But more than that, his back legs were both useless from the neuropathy. He just collapsed in the yard today and would not, could not stand up, not even with help.
I didn't want to give him back to God so soon but it would have been selfish of me to force him to live when he was unhappy and unhealthy and just plain miserable. I know I did the right thing for him and will always be glad for the years we were together.
But I had no desire to drink, none whatsoever. Nikko wouldn't have liked it if I'd done that, after all, he knew me as a drunk for almost two years and it wasn't for the best for him. I didnt take good care of him while I was drinking and I'm not going to start drinking now cause I still have Jack and Snoopy to care for and love and they need a sober mommy.
I think Nikko would be proud of me and happy for me for doing the right thing by staying sober, don't you think?
My little Nikko-boy was suffering - he hadn't gotten off my bed since Tuesday (except when I carried him outside to go potty). He was miserable and would give little cries, little yelps, so I know he was not happy. Then his kidneys started shutting down - he couldn't pee hardly at all. That in itself would be a painful death. But more than that, his back legs were both useless from the neuropathy. He just collapsed in the yard today and would not, could not stand up, not even with help.
I didn't want to give him back to God so soon but it would have been selfish of me to force him to live when he was unhappy and unhealthy and just plain miserable. I know I did the right thing for him and will always be glad for the years we were together.
But I had no desire to drink, none whatsoever. Nikko wouldn't have liked it if I'd done that, after all, he knew me as a drunk for almost two years and it wasn't for the best for him. I didnt take good care of him while I was drinking and I'm not going to start drinking now cause I still have Jack and Snoopy to care for and love and they need a sober mommy.
I think Nikko would be proud of me and happy for me for doing the right thing by staying sober, don't you think?
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I am so sorry for your loss, Least. I've read how much you love your dogs, and I feel exactly the same when it comes to my boz boz. I know you were a good mom to Nikko, it showed in your posts and pictures. I'm sure Nikko is very proud of you, and grateful that he has such a wonderful mom.
(((HUGS)))
Laura and Boz boz
(((HUGS)))
Laura and Boz boz
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Great animals deserve folks like you!
What a loving story. Your posts are grand, but these about your dear Nikko have been so moving. How fortunate for Nikko and your other furry friends to have such affection and care. Sobriety is beautiful!
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Join Date: Jun 2011
Location: tennessee
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hey sweetie...my heart hurts for you too. my love for my dogs is so very deep. nikko did what he was meant to do. he was here for you during bad times and good times. his job is done. he is happy and free ....there is a special place in heaven for pets...and the ppl who love them. they are God's creatures too...and when the time comes...he calls them home. i strive to be the person that my dogs think i am.....love and comfort to you.......mags
Least,
I am so very sorry. I am just glad that Nikko had you as his "mommy". It is apparent that you love all of your dogs very much - he was very lucky to have you. And I am proud of you for not drinking. Take care of yourself. ((hugs))
I am so very sorry. I am just glad that Nikko had you as his "mommy". It is apparent that you love all of your dogs very much - he was very lucky to have you. And I am proud of you for not drinking. Take care of yourself. ((hugs))
From someone who has had to put his own beloved companion animals down, I know what you are going through. But I've never had to do it sober. Hope I have your strength and resolve, Least. Like Nikko, we are proud and happy you are sober.
(((((((((Least))))))))))
Thoughts and prayers are with you. Cherish the time you had with Nikko (I know you will) and rest assured he's at Rainbow Bridge waiting for the day to see you again.
Take care Least.
Thoughts and prayers are with you. Cherish the time you had with Nikko (I know you will) and rest assured he's at Rainbow Bridge waiting for the day to see you again.
Take care Least.
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