DisplacedGRITS

I'm sorry.

I've been posting here recently rather haphazardly. I have been drinking but get sober enough for rehab. I am intelligent and insightful but am intent on smothering myself. ,y "graduation" is coming up bit i'm terrified. I hate hate hate AA but the other options are far away and i'm scared of driving over ice covered bridges. I guess I need to bite the bullet and just go. How do I forgive myself for lying band relapsing? I feel horrid.

Dee74

Hi dG

I must have missed some posts cos I'm not sure whether you're in rehab or just out or what.

why do you 'hate hate hate' AA exactly?

D

SSIL75

I am also confused. What is 'just sober enough for rehab'? Oh, do you mean IOP?

Terminally Unique

DisplacedGRITS,

I recall the last time you were "going back" to rehab, which means that you've already gone through a few times with no success. Perhaps it's time to try something different?

LoftyIdeals

DisplacedGRITS...for many of us, our alcoholism is but a sign of deeper issues that we've numbed ourselves from. But we need to remain sober to figure them out and deal with them. For me, sobriety is just the catalyst that makes growth possible. Work out a plan to remain sober, and surrender to the plan. And maybe then you can get on with your life. Sobriety is first, however.

eJoshua

Hi DG

I don't think you have to apologize. Are you going to in patient rehab or are you currently in out patient? I'm sorry you're feeling so conflicted right now.