EDHARLEY

Back at it and it is funny how this creeps up on you.. I was in the store and though to myself, oh I can buy a bottle of wine.. its ok.. DID I not just realize how much I hate drinking? How bad I feel or how productive I am not hung over in an anxiety ridden state.. hating myself, hating my life, spending the countless hours deciding if I should run to another city, if I should change my life, wondering what is wrong with me.
All of this time spent contemplating several problems which in reality have one simple solution..

I cannot drink tonight
I cannot drink tonight

I will follow that today.. just today we will see about tomorrow..

It amazes me how easily I forget, how quickly I forget..

For me I must focuse at all times, never let my guard down, over come my emotions, take everything one day at a time, and give myself 24 hours to act or react to all emotional situations

For me my focus really does determine my reality..

I hope that everyone is doing well tonight..

tanja

Pat yourself on the back! You were tempted, but did not give in. One day at a time has worked well for me thus far. Write it out if you have to, over and over again. Or chant it! I try and review my journal every day and the disgusting entries on the anxiety, shame, self-loathing, guilt and physical agony shows me where I do NOT want to go. Keep up the good work

Anna

I'm glad that you got through it.

quitforme79

Congrats on getting thru it!! The self talk really helps me too. You will be so thankful tomorrow (maybe even tonight) that you didn't get the wine. One day at a time....