violetflame

Ineed to truly incorporate myself into this community. I think it is the only support system I have right now. My problem is I continue to fool myself into taking the 1st drink. The week before I am getting my period it gets really bad and I feel like crap about myself right now. I went to an AA meeting but I think it really didnt do it for me. I find that I have no willpower these days and I am losing myself. I have honestly realized maybe for the 1st time that I have become an alcoholic and it is such a sinking feeling. It scares me to think i may drink again tomorrow. I feel so alone and scared. I want to stop but then tomrrow I will lose my resolve.

instant

I found reading the BIg Book (free online), learning about AVRT (rational recovery) and joining a daily support thread here on site very helpful. It was a difficult weekend but it happened.

Dee74

The support and wisdom I found here really helped me to break that cycle VF.

It's still a lot of work and commitment to make that hard choice and not drink, but beign part of SR made it easier.

Face to face support can help too.

I think you probably need more than one meeting to fully make up your mind about AA, but that's your call - there are other alternatives tho:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...formation.html

Welcome back
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