At the crossroads of action
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Join Date: Sep 2011
Location: ventura california
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At the crossroads of action
Hi, I'm an alcoholic, I don't know how I got here I just turned 47 and have been drinking booze since I was about 18. I joined this forum in sept. 2011, was strong for 10 days, then wham, relapse, or whatever you call it/
Addiction is a very powerful thing. Had a big blow out with my mother, who is an AA GURU, she wants to help me. AA worked for her, this was over 10 years ago. She had a husband and financial security.
I am unemployed, have no friends and my boyfriend has had it up to here and will most likely leave me and take our dog. My mother says she would not leave me homeless, and would help to send me to a rehab. I see the homeless on the streets begging for money and see I could be right there very soon. Im searching the net for a sober living in So Califronia, wow, lots of money, If anyone knows of something around two thousand a month. Or a work the premisis in trade type of thing. There is no more gov funding out here.
The power of this addiction is overwhelming, I am a slave to it, I resist AA because my mother and I have issues, so I am lost, I have no friends but I know I cant do this alone.
I also have probation terms, how do I tell the court or my PO I might need to leave the county to get help. Then they could violate me and send me to jail because I would have admitted to drinking. Maybe I should just go to jail, cant drink there then I could be paying off some fines. I'm rambling, I know, I'm a mess.
Right now I want to stop, but my dt's and anxiety is soooo bad I have to have something so my heart wont burst. I have no insurance no money, like I said I am a mess.
Thanks for listening
Addiction is a very powerful thing. Had a big blow out with my mother, who is an AA GURU, she wants to help me. AA worked for her, this was over 10 years ago. She had a husband and financial security.
I am unemployed, have no friends and my boyfriend has had it up to here and will most likely leave me and take our dog. My mother says she would not leave me homeless, and would help to send me to a rehab. I see the homeless on the streets begging for money and see I could be right there very soon. Im searching the net for a sober living in So Califronia, wow, lots of money, If anyone knows of something around two thousand a month. Or a work the premisis in trade type of thing. There is no more gov funding out here.
The power of this addiction is overwhelming, I am a slave to it, I resist AA because my mother and I have issues, so I am lost, I have no friends but I know I cant do this alone.
I also have probation terms, how do I tell the court or my PO I might need to leave the county to get help. Then they could violate me and send me to jail because I would have admitted to drinking. Maybe I should just go to jail, cant drink there then I could be paying off some fines. I'm rambling, I know, I'm a mess.
Right now I want to stop, but my dt's and anxiety is soooo bad I have to have something so my heart wont burst. I have no insurance no money, like I said I am a mess.
Thanks for listening
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Hi,
I am not an AA person either, and I didn't go to rehab. I stopped drinking on my own, and later I found SR, which has become my lifeline. You don't necessarily need money in order to stop drinking.
However, I would urge you to talk to a dr before you detox because it can be dangerous and do go to the ER if you are concerned with how you're feeling.
I am not an AA person either, and I didn't go to rehab. I stopped drinking on my own, and later I found SR, which has become my lifeline. You don't necessarily need money in order to stop drinking.
However, I would urge you to talk to a dr before you detox because it can be dangerous and do go to the ER if you are concerned with how you're feeling.
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Join Date: Oct 2011
Location: Yorkshire, UK
Posts: 348
Welcome to SR Ventura!
As Anna says you dont need money to get sober, in fact you save money! in the last 5 days alone i've saved around £60 (nearly $100), simply be not drinking.
Why not go see your dr as Anna suggests, I dont know about the US but here in the uk your dr can put you in touch with a free of charge service, be that counseling or group sessions.
Best of luck to you
AoS
As Anna says you dont need money to get sober, in fact you save money! in the last 5 days alone i've saved around £60 (nearly $100), simply be not drinking.
Why not go see your dr as Anna suggests, I dont know about the US but here in the uk your dr can put you in touch with a free of charge service, be that counseling or group sessions.
Best of luck to you
AoS
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 211,442
Hi Ventura
Welcome
There are a lot of free clinics about
Free/Low-Cost/Sliding-Scale Clinics
- or the ER - lack of money shouldn't stop you seeing a Dr at all
I don't think the fact your mom is in AA should necessary stop you from going - but AA's not the only game in town - SMARTs another alternative...and a few people here use Rational Recovery.
I think it's important to recognise that if we want to make changes in our lives we need to act and actually make those changes happen.
Don't stay at the cross roads too long - maybe it's time to do something different?
D
Welcome
There are a lot of free clinics about
Free/Low-Cost/Sliding-Scale Clinics
- or the ER - lack of money shouldn't stop you seeing a Dr at all
I don't think the fact your mom is in AA should necessary stop you from going - but AA's not the only game in town - SMARTs another alternative...and a few people here use Rational Recovery.
I think it's important to recognise that if we want to make changes in our lives we need to act and actually make those changes happen.
Don't stay at the cross roads too long - maybe it's time to do something different?
D
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Join Date: Dec 2006
Location: Oxnard (The Nard), CA, USA.
Posts: 13,955
You might try the:
Ventura County Dept of Alcohol/Drug Programs Ventura Center
24 East Main Street
Ventura, California 93001
Phone: (805) 652-6918
They have a good out patient program.
24 East Main Street
Ventura, California 93001
Phone: (805) 652-6918
Titanium
Join Date: Oct 2011
Location: Tolland County, CT
Posts: 45
give yourself a break, that's first!
AA is a great program. i wouldn't take my mom as a sponsor, and i probably wouldn't join her home group.
you might find what you're looking for in AA, but it doesn't have to be what your mom found.
good luck!
AA is a great program. i wouldn't take my mom as a sponsor, and i probably wouldn't join her home group.
you might find what you're looking for in AA, but it doesn't have to be what your mom found.
good luck!
Member
Join Date: Dec 2005
Location: Baton Rouge, La.
Posts: 15,238
Hi Im Sharon and Im an Alcoholic.
I was 30 yrs old, a mom and wife
when my family stepped in with an
intervention sending me to rehab where
I stayed 28 days recieving the tools
and knowledge of my alcoholism.
I took those tools and knowledge and
incorperated them into my everyday
life learning to live a day at a time
without drinking.
That was 21 yrs ago.
Today im 53 remarried and still on
my recovery journey living happy
joyous and free from my addiction.
I remember when I was 7 yrs sober
and my little family, husband and 2
wonderful kids relocated to Houston
from Baton Rouge, La. to give our
kids more educational opportunities,
there would be changes, fears, challenges
in our lives.
However for the most part for me, it
was that important to stay sober no
matter what. And I did, and, have.
When my kids began high school
I knew there would be peer pressures,
those teenage yrs of growing, changing,
maturing and as parents we needed to
be the best example, support, encouragement
for them.
With my recovery program in place and
pictures of my own horrible car accident
to show them as a constant reminder of
what drinking and drinking could do to them
I was able to be the perfect role model
right there in our own home for them.
If we didnt set good examples or talk to
our kids about the dangers of drug, alcohol,
sex, stealing, lieing, killing, fighting and so
on, then they would have to learn the hard
way, which is in the streets or amongst so
call friends.
I always reminded my 2 kids that if they
ever had a problem with drinking or drugs
and needed help that they could always
come to me. They saw how i stayed sober
under many circumstances and a program
of recovery works if i worked it.
I thank my HP for keeping my 2 babies
safe from harm and guiding them to an
awesome place in their lives today.
I was 30 yrs old, a mom and wife
when my family stepped in with an
intervention sending me to rehab where
I stayed 28 days recieving the tools
and knowledge of my alcoholism.
I took those tools and knowledge and
incorperated them into my everyday
life learning to live a day at a time
without drinking.
That was 21 yrs ago.
Today im 53 remarried and still on
my recovery journey living happy
joyous and free from my addiction.
I remember when I was 7 yrs sober
and my little family, husband and 2
wonderful kids relocated to Houston
from Baton Rouge, La. to give our
kids more educational opportunities,
there would be changes, fears, challenges
in our lives.
However for the most part for me, it
was that important to stay sober no
matter what. And I did, and, have.
When my kids began high school
I knew there would be peer pressures,
those teenage yrs of growing, changing,
maturing and as parents we needed to
be the best example, support, encouragement
for them.
With my recovery program in place and
pictures of my own horrible car accident
to show them as a constant reminder of
what drinking and drinking could do to them
I was able to be the perfect role model
right there in our own home for them.
If we didnt set good examples or talk to
our kids about the dangers of drug, alcohol,
sex, stealing, lieing, killing, fighting and so
on, then they would have to learn the hard
way, which is in the streets or amongst so
call friends.
I always reminded my 2 kids that if they
ever had a problem with drinking or drugs
and needed help that they could always
come to me. They saw how i stayed sober
under many circumstances and a program
of recovery works if i worked it.
I thank my HP for keeping my 2 babies
safe from harm and guiding them to an
awesome place in their lives today.
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Join Date: Aug 2011
Location: Present Moment
Posts: 646
Welcome Ventura
I truly got to a point where I was willing and open to try ANYTHING to get well. What I was doing certainly was not working - I'm not saying it will be easy my friend, but anything is worth a try than living in that cycle of hell...YOU are worth it...now go and get it. Big Hugs
I truly got to a point where I was willing and open to try ANYTHING to get well. What I was doing certainly was not working - I'm not saying it will be easy my friend, but anything is worth a try than living in that cycle of hell...YOU are worth it...now go and get it. Big Hugs
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