Home from Rehab...
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Home from Rehab...
I have to say that I have thought long and hard about if I should write a post on this or not. A huge part of me wants to share the amazing experience I had yet at the same time can I do it justice in words on a screen? So here it goes.
When I logged on to this site for the first time on August 23 the world was a very dark and lonely place. I was scared with no hope and my life was spiraling out of control so fast I did not know how to stop it.
With the help of some wonderful people from SR who I now consider to be my dearest friends and family I am home from Rehab and I am on my 38th day of being clean and sober, not to mention I have not cut myself in over 30 days as well!!
When I left for rehab I honestly thought I would not return alive.
I weighed a whopping 91 pounds at 5'11, I now weigh 115 pounds
I went from having multiple epileptic seizures a day (while medicated) to being seizure free for the last 3 weeks.
I have ZERO desire to drink or use any form of drug.
I follow the AA program and find my recovery so far to have been amazing.
I am LOVING living life. I SMILE!!! REAL REAL smiles. I feel my emotions even when I don't like them I FEEL them and DEAL with them and then they are done and over with and I can move on. NO more stuffing things away and pretending they do not exist.
I don't sleep much since being sober, it is like I don't want to miss a single sober moment.
For those of you who do not know my story... Here it is...
I celebrated my heavenly daughters 16th birthday the other day... and for the first time I was able to face it and celebrate it sober... it was my birthday gift to her.... It was my way to honour what a beautiful young women she is and the fact that I was allowed to be her Momma!!
I have a lot of work to do, and I look forward to each 24 hours of that work that I get to do.
Thank you to each and everyone who helped me and got me where I am now
And to my very special chat family... I love you guys like no other... it is good to be home!!! hug hug hug
Oh and because I am no longer LOST... I will be changing my screen name..
When I logged on to this site for the first time on August 23 the world was a very dark and lonely place. I was scared with no hope and my life was spiraling out of control so fast I did not know how to stop it.
With the help of some wonderful people from SR who I now consider to be my dearest friends and family I am home from Rehab and I am on my 38th day of being clean and sober, not to mention I have not cut myself in over 30 days as well!!
When I left for rehab I honestly thought I would not return alive.
I weighed a whopping 91 pounds at 5'11, I now weigh 115 pounds
I went from having multiple epileptic seizures a day (while medicated) to being seizure free for the last 3 weeks.
I have ZERO desire to drink or use any form of drug.
I follow the AA program and find my recovery so far to have been amazing.
I am LOVING living life. I SMILE!!! REAL REAL smiles. I feel my emotions even when I don't like them I FEEL them and DEAL with them and then they are done and over with and I can move on. NO more stuffing things away and pretending they do not exist.
I don't sleep much since being sober, it is like I don't want to miss a single sober moment.
For those of you who do not know my story... Here it is...
I celebrated my heavenly daughters 16th birthday the other day... and for the first time I was able to face it and celebrate it sober... it was my birthday gift to her.... It was my way to honour what a beautiful young women she is and the fact that I was allowed to be her Momma!!
I have a lot of work to do, and I look forward to each 24 hours of that work that I get to do.
Thank you to each and everyone who helped me and got me where I am now
And to my very special chat family... I love you guys like no other... it is good to be home!!! hug hug hug
Oh and because I am no longer LOST... I will be changing my screen name..
MIND OF DESTRUCTIVE TASTE
Join Date: Mar 2011
Location: Chicago, IL
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Oh congratulations, you deserve this - to be sober! I read your story and it honestly had me bawling and my heart hurts for you and your loss. I have an almost 4 yr old and the loss of her would devastate me completely. You sound like you are headed in a great direction and you inspire me. Best wishes to you. You deserve happiness, love and sobriety.
-Jess
-Jess
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Join Date: Jun 2011
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Thank you for sharing your inspiring story. You are a strong woman who is doing what it takes to change your life for the better. Your story helps me stay strong. Thanks again, and happy belated birthday to your dear heavenly daughter.
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Join Date: Aug 2010
Location: NS, Canada
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Ohhh Lost!! So wonderful to 'see' you! I have thought of you often. Thank you so much for sharing .. congratulations on your successes, and big wishes for many more smiles and lots of happiness in your future. You are an inspiration!
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Hi Lost4now,
Wow, this is truly inspiring.
Your story made me tear up. It shows that even in the darkest places, ther can be hope for recovery.Congratulations on your sober and self-harm-free time! Best wishes to you, and much success in your ongoing recovery!
Wow, this is truly inspiring.
Your story made me tear up. It shows that even in the darkest places, ther can be hope for recovery.Congratulations on your sober and self-harm-free time! Best wishes to you, and much success in your ongoing recovery!
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