Promotion lost and so am I.
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Thread Starter
Join Date: Sep 2011
Location: Galveston TX
Posts: 574
Promotion lost and so am I.
Today was miserable. I lost a promotion due to my attendance at work, all from being too hung over to wake up and go. I had a bender last night and I drank around 23 beers last night, which didnt help the fact when they pulled me into that office. I was also put on a probation period, the next time I call in I will get fired. They offered me rehab, and I dont know whether to take it, because the last woman that took it got fired 2 weeks after returning. I have a 6 year old daughter and I really cant afoord to lose my job. I KNOW I need to stop. I WANT to stop not only for myself or my family. I am just so lost. I couldnt make my AA today, wouldnt have done any good anyway since I already cracked open a beer. My desire to stop either needs to grow, or I need a new mind. Im feeling crazy right now.
Thanks for listening.
Thanks for listening.
Member
Join Date: Jul 2011
Posts: 318
Please take them up on their offer of rehab. If you keep drinking, you'll be fired anyway, plus you'll have all kinds of other troubles due to the drinking. If you get sober, even if you get fired, you'll be well enough to find another job. Wishing you all the best, wishing for recovery for you and a happy life.
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 211,429
If you don't go to rehab whats your plan then Dominica?
I think with your job in jeopardy and your life in disarray, you really need to look at making tangible concrete plans and changes...today.
Everybody wants to just sort things out on their own, preferably with as little pain and as little change as possible....
Unfortunately for most of us, that's just not a realistic hope.
I think we get to a point where just 'trying' isn't really going to cut it anymore.
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I think with your job in jeopardy and your life in disarray, you really need to look at making tangible concrete plans and changes...today.
Everybody wants to just sort things out on their own, preferably with as little pain and as little change as possible....
Unfortunately for most of us, that's just not a realistic hope.
I think we get to a point where just 'trying' isn't really going to cut it anymore.
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Join Date: Jan 2011
Location: Northern Ireland
Posts: 413
Originally Posted by Dominica2 
I know. I want the treatment. I really do. I guess I will have the discussion with them tomorrow morning. I mean, what do I have to lose?
And the world to gain by kicking the head off your demons
rode hard and put away wet
Join Date: Sep 2010
Posts: 999
Originally Posted by Dominica2
I will definitely get my life right. I have made a promise to myself.
I went to rehab when my kids were 3 and 5. Kids even that age know there's something wrong with mommy even if you try to hide it. It's affected them. That I can't change but now I am sober and today they can be confident I am not drinking. They never have to have a drunk or hungover or otherwise preoccupied with getting and/or hiding the next drink me ever again. I never do either.
Please get you some help, kiddo. I believe your bosses are being really generous here. Take it.
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Join Date: Dec 2005
Location: Baton Rouge, La.
Posts: 15,237
I made too many promises and excuses that
i couldnt or didnt want to keep. Then it made
me feel like a failure or disgrace. I was POWERLESS
over every drink I tried not to drink.
For me, i was grateful that my family sought
help for me when I couldnt help myself. They
did an intervention sending me to rehab via
the back seat of a police car.
Why a police car u ask.....
Well, i wasnt willing to go with my family and
I surely wasnt going by myself. So with proper
channels and phone calls to the right people,
a court order was issued to have me picked
up and brought to the hospital to find out
why i wanted to end my miserable life.
That first night in the phyciatric ward amongst
the mentally ill patiants scared me to death as I
could see plainly that i wasnt that far gone.
I past all the test thrown at me the next day
verifying i was sane and the only problem i
had was a drinking problem.
I spent the next 28 days with them teaching
me about my disease of alcoholism and how
it affected me and those around me.
What i learned was, i couldnt drink sucessfully
like normal people could. I could never have just
one drink and stop. In fact there is never enough
alcohol in this world to satisfy my craving for it.
So, i learned by following steps and principles
of an AA program to live by each day.
Recovery isnt just for the day, week, month
but a journey of a lifetime.
Ive learned to stay sober by giving away the
knowledge that was so freely passed on to me
to others that are still suffering from addiction.
I continue to do so even today some 21 yrs later.
i couldnt or didnt want to keep. Then it made
me feel like a failure or disgrace. I was POWERLESS
over every drink I tried not to drink.
For me, i was grateful that my family sought
help for me when I couldnt help myself. They
did an intervention sending me to rehab via
the back seat of a police car.
Why a police car u ask.....
Well, i wasnt willing to go with my family and
I surely wasnt going by myself. So with proper
channels and phone calls to the right people,
a court order was issued to have me picked
up and brought to the hospital to find out
why i wanted to end my miserable life.
That first night in the phyciatric ward amongst
the mentally ill patiants scared me to death as I
could see plainly that i wasnt that far gone.
I past all the test thrown at me the next day
verifying i was sane and the only problem i
had was a drinking problem.
I spent the next 28 days with them teaching
me about my disease of alcoholism and how
it affected me and those around me.
What i learned was, i couldnt drink sucessfully
like normal people could. I could never have just
one drink and stop. In fact there is never enough
alcohol in this world to satisfy my craving for it.
So, i learned by following steps and principles
of an AA program to live by each day.
Recovery isnt just for the day, week, month
but a journey of a lifetime.
Ive learned to stay sober by giving away the
knowledge that was so freely passed on to me
to others that are still suffering from addiction.
I continue to do so even today some 21 yrs later.
Sober...Finally.
Thread Starter
Join Date: Sep 2011
Location: Galveston TX
Posts: 574
I will do this, i just dont want everything falling out from under me, i think I am still able to overcome this disease, but im not resisting, im just anxious. I have an anxiety attack almost everyday, because of all the things I have done when I am drunk. Thanks for all the support.
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Join Date: Sep 2010
Posts: 83
Dominica, I don't have anymore sobriety at this point than you do, but... I WAS you 20 years ago. I didn't stop, in spite of treatment, and my life sucks. I have a minimal relationship with my 26 year old daughter. My life is all about regret and remorse now. Please don't let that happen to you. Save yourself... and your little girl.
rode hard and put away wet
Join Date: Sep 2010
Posts: 999
Originally Posted by Dominica2
i just dont want everything falling out from under me, i think I am still able to overcome this disease,
I couldn't see it but was lucky enough to have people in my life who cared enough to insist on the help I got in rehab. I am so glad I decided to humor those folks and go.
Take care of this.
Much love.
~sb
Join Date: Jul 2011
Location: MD
Posts: 15,964
You can make the choice to overcome your addiction or not.
You can stay stopped and build your life with a foundation of sobriety, or continue to watch everything crumble much more.
I wish you a strong sober foundation.
You can stay stopped and build your life with a foundation of sobriety, or continue to watch everything crumble much more.
I wish you a strong sober foundation.
bona fido dog-lover
Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: SF Bay area, CA
Posts: 99,776
They offered me rehab, and I dont know whether to take it,
Take it as a drowning man would take a life preserver.
i think I am still able to overcome this disease
Having missed the AA meeting that you said you'd go to cause you'd already cracked open a beer, I'd say you're not doing too well at overcoming this disease on your own. Go for the rehab.
Member
Join Date: Oct 2011
Location: cleveland, oho
Posts: 57
i have two kids,, didnt want to lose my job either. my work sent me to 2 rehabs, the first I didnt listen and kept drinkng, and got a dui, then they sent me to a second,, left there got another dui. THEN they fired me. I will tell you this. I just wish I would have stopped drinking for a couple weeks to actually see what was going on around me. I really do. When I finally sobered up a couple weeks after being fired and getting dragged through the legal system thats when i just said OH ****!! THEN I sobered up. JUst stop for a couple weeks and look around you and see what is going on. Im telling you from first hand experience it gets worse! Then you have a bigger hole to dig out of when you DO actually stop. Cmon,, you will thank yourself for this someday
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