What a suprise, another relapse.
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Join Date: Sep 2011
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What a suprise, another relapse.
I drank 23 beers last night and feel terrible today. I would like to say I am a functioning alchoholic, but i dont even think thats plausible. Functioning and alcoholic in the same sentence? I am exhausted, and know I have to stop this cycle. I really wish I could afford rehab, because at this point, I am thinking its the only thing that will work for me. I dont understand why I stay so selfish, that a liquid can overpower me the way it does. I am just sick of living this way. I am wasting away slowly.
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Dominica,
At the very least, you are still posting. Still reaching out. The salvation army offers rehab programs at no cost. Perhaps, you could look into that. Do you know what prompted the drinking episode? I know for me, it is negative thinking.
take care of yourself and know you are not alone.
At the very least, you are still posting. Still reaching out. The salvation army offers rehab programs at no cost. Perhaps, you could look into that. Do you know what prompted the drinking episode? I know for me, it is negative thinking.
take care of yourself and know you are not alone.
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I've looked into rehab options for my AS.
The Salvation Army offer good residential and non residential rehab programs. The program is means tested. If on benefits it's about 80% of your benefits.
This covers your food, accommodation and the full program. The program's I was looking at ran for around 10 months.
They say you have to go into detox first which is about 7 days and the Salvation Army also do this.
Well this is the information I was given for my son who has a an issue with substance abuse.
Some of the rehab facilities were in very nice locations.
The Salvation Army offer good residential and non residential rehab programs. The program is means tested. If on benefits it's about 80% of your benefits.
This covers your food, accommodation and the full program. The program's I was looking at ran for around 10 months.
They say you have to go into detox first which is about 7 days and the Salvation Army also do this.
Well this is the information I was given for my son who has a an issue with substance abuse.
Some of the rehab facilities were in very nice locations.
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Sorry, just to clarify, the 80% of benefits was for the residential program. They said he would likely end up on sickness benefits whilst he was in there.
I don't know what the cost is for non residential and if it's the same for everyone and every circumstance.
I don't know what the cost is for non residential and if it's the same for everyone and every circumstance.
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We(those of us who have recovered) have a precise, clear-cut set of instructions that if you are willing to follow...will give you permanent sobriety...and you never (yup, that's right, never) have to worry about another relapse. 
The question is: "Are you willing little sister?"
The question is: "Are you willing little sister?"
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Originally Posted by Dominica2 
I have been ready for 3 years. I just need to beat the withdrawal, thats my biggest fear.
If your done head over to AA and get cranking on the steps...I bet a personal relationship with your Creator could get you past those fears and DTs. That's what the steps do, they give us a relationship with Power, by which we can live, and we don't ever have to worry about any of that mess again.
Peace.
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Dominica.. I don't mean to pry, and you don't have to answer, but what techniques and methods have you used to deal with withdrawal and cravings? I'm curious because I'm sure that a ton of people here could offer some valuable insight as to how to tweak your plan to possibly increase your success.
Also, it's hard to stay positive after a relapse. But the reality is, you admit you have a problem and you are trying to get better. Just with that, you're doing SOOO much better than those who refuse to admit their alcohol use is having a tremendous impact on their life. You already beat the hardest part of the game! That's something to be very proud of. Now it's only a matter of learning to play the rest. I said it yesterday, and I'll say it again today.. when learning something new (like sobriety), there will be failures. The difference between someone who dies of alcoholism and someone who becomes a fully recovered alcoholic is that of persistence and a refusal to give up.
It will be hell for a while. You.. can.. not.. give.. up. It may well be the worst time of your life. But why not suffer the worst part of life to be able to live the rest?
Also, it's hard to stay positive after a relapse. But the reality is, you admit you have a problem and you are trying to get better. Just with that, you're doing SOOO much better than those who refuse to admit their alcohol use is having a tremendous impact on their life. You already beat the hardest part of the game! That's something to be very proud of. Now it's only a matter of learning to play the rest. I said it yesterday, and I'll say it again today.. when learning something new (like sobriety), there will be failures. The difference between someone who dies of alcoholism and someone who becomes a fully recovered alcoholic is that of persistence and a refusal to give up.
It will be hell for a while. You.. can.. not.. give.. up. It may well be the worst time of your life. But why not suffer the worst part of life to be able to live the rest?
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I have just been, dealing with the witdrawals by walking. Thats about it. I go to the gym if I dont drink. I am starting school in January and I really want to be focused walking into it. Today will be the day I quit for a long time, hopefully foreever. I dont have any health insurance, so rehab is something I will have to look into. Right now, im just exhausted of waking up feeling like this. I can do it though, I know it.
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Originally Posted by Dominica2
Today will be the day I quit for a long time, hopefully foreever.
Many people here will say to take it day by day, hour by hour if you have to. That's very useful advice.. but in addition to that, there has to be something in the back of your mind that carries some small degree of resolve and strength needed to be rid of that poison for the rest of your life.
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Sorry D. I'm there so often myself. I know the pain and disapointment we feel with ourselves. The fact that you kept track of the number of cans tells you that you were trying to resist. I do that also. I get in a mode where I am obsessed with finishing the box. Then I feel useless and weak. Lately I have been trying to take a more passive approach with my relapses. I can't take it back, and it seems to do little good to beat myself up for a few days (or drink for a few days). Now I just try to emotionally regroup, and pick up where I was before the fall. We can only keep going forward if we are to survive. And survive we must, because both you and I know that as time goes on each relapse gets worse and we find new ways to drink more and more alcohol. I'm thinking of you today and I wish you luck. Hang in there.
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