Day three of sobriety going wrong – help please
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Day three of sobriety going wrong – help please
It was all going really well for me these last three days until I had to venture out of the house to meet my ex for an urgent chat this evening. Things didn’t go well at all and I was so angry in the car on the way home. I managed to make it past two alcohol shops en-route home but the voice in my head kept on and on and eventually I succumbed to it and ended up buying some booze.
When I got home I must have stared at the bottle for at least half an hour before my head told me that I deserved a drink after what I’d just been through. What the hell is wrong with me? Does this mean that I am destined to lock myself away at home for the rest of my days to avoid situations where these emotions, and this voice, make me pick up a drink?
I’m not too familiar with the whole AA system but would this be when a sponsor would be needed? Someone to chat and talk things through with when times are hard?
Sorry for the negative rant but I’m really not sure how I’m going to be able to deal with these types of situations in the future. Life is always going to throw up these challenges, I appreciate that, but this bl()()dy voice in my head always seems to push me towards the booze.
Thanks for your time and continued support.
Nick
When I got home I must have stared at the bottle for at least half an hour before my head told me that I deserved a drink after what I’d just been through. What the hell is wrong with me? Does this mean that I am destined to lock myself away at home for the rest of my days to avoid situations where these emotions, and this voice, make me pick up a drink?
I’m not too familiar with the whole AA system but would this be when a sponsor would be needed? Someone to chat and talk things through with when times are hard?
Sorry for the negative rant but I’m really not sure how I’m going to be able to deal with these types of situations in the future. Life is always going to throw up these challenges, I appreciate that, but this bl()()dy voice in my head always seems to push me towards the booze.
Thanks for your time and continued support.
Nick
It was all going really well for me these last three days until I had to venture out of the house to meet my ex for an urgent chat this evening. Things didn’t go well at all and I was so angry in the car on the way home. I managed to make it past two alcohol shops en-route home but the voice in my head kept on and on and eventually I succumbed to it and ended up buying some booze.
When I got home I must have stared at the bottle for at least half an hour before my head told me that I deserved a drink after what I’d just been through. What the hell is wrong with me?
When I got home I must have stared at the bottle for at least half an hour before my head told me that I deserved a drink after what I’d just been through. What the hell is wrong with me?
Does this mean that I am destined to lock myself away at home for the rest of my days to avoid situations where these emotions, and this voice, make me pick up a drink?
I’m not too familiar with the whole AA system but would this be when a sponsor would be needed? Someone to chat and talk things through with when times are hard?
Sorry for the negative rant but I’m really not sure how I’m going to be able to deal with these types of situations in the future. Life is always going to throw up these challenges, I appreciate that, but this bl()()dy voice in my head always seems to push me towards the booze.
Hang in there!
I recommend calling your local AA number. They will find someone to call you and talk with you about whats going on. I remember after my first DUI and I was in shock and disbelief and so scared and wanting to drink so badly. Well, a really nice lady called me and she totally understood me and what I was going through. Thats the "magic" off AA. Those people have all been where we are now and somehow, they got sober and all they want to do is help others get sober.
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Thanks for the kind messages of support people;-))
Just poured the rest of the booze down the sink, going to try and get some sleep and start from day one again tomorrow (well technically today as its just gone midnight in London lol)
Goodnight to all and thanks again
God bless
Nick
Just poured the rest of the booze down the sink, going to try and get some sleep and start from day one again tomorrow (well technically today as its just gone midnight in London lol)
Goodnight to all and thanks again
God bless
Nick
Hi Nick,
I used to automatically react like you did, and turn to alcohol, and I made things worse and worse.
You really can learn to deal with emotional situations in a healthy way. That's what recovery is all about.
I used to automatically react like you did, and turn to alcohol, and I made things worse and worse.
You really can learn to deal with emotional situations in a healthy way. That's what recovery is all about.
Hi Nick
I used to have only one way of reacting to situation - I drank.
Getting some more support enabled me to have a few other options and I think it wil help you too - whether it's AA, SMART or some other recovery group, counselling, or whatever.
Posting and reading here too - while you're struggling with those thoughts - can help too
You can do this
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I used to have only one way of reacting to situation - I drank.
Getting some more support enabled me to have a few other options and I think it wil help you too - whether it's AA, SMART or some other recovery group, counselling, or whatever.
Posting and reading here too - while you're struggling with those thoughts - can help too
You can do this
D
StudentOfLife - It's good you came here to discuss this. You're at the very beginning of your journey, so be kind & patient with yourself.
After a lifetime of drinking over anything and everything, I found it was a reflex to grab a drink to calm myself. I had to unlearn that behavior. It took me awhile to get it, but I finally realized there's no comfort or solution in the bottom of that glass. You're learning it too, Nick. Glad you are getting some sleep - keep us informed.
After a lifetime of drinking over anything and everything, I found it was a reflex to grab a drink to calm myself. I had to unlearn that behavior. It took me awhile to get it, but I finally realized there's no comfort or solution in the bottom of that glass. You're learning it too, Nick. Glad you are getting some sleep - keep us informed.
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It takes about four days for the alcohol and all metabolites to fully leave the body, so around day 3 is when you'll really start to feel it, so to speak. In other words, that is when the withdrawal symptoms like anxiety really start to kick in. I used to have many 3 day off and back on cycles over the years before someone pointed this out to me.
Something to keep in mind so you can be prepared.
Alcohol Withdrawal Timeline
Something to keep in mind so you can be prepared.
Alcohol Withdrawal Timeline
Try attending aa meetings wwith an open mind. I have 300 phone numbers available, over 100 in my phone and 3 phone number lists. I can call and talk to any of these people, or to my sponsor Before I decide to buy a drink. If I am determined to drink, I'd just buy the drink. Today, I have a choice. It wasn't always like this for me. It's a non-issue.
I still call a few people every day.
I still call a few people every day.
Good for you for not just dropping into a binge which I probably would have done. Sometimes you need to fall and get up again to realize you have the willpower to beat this thing and I have fallen multiple times within the past year and a half and each time got up and failed again but this time I am determined to go ahead and stop and I know I can do it if not I'll probably die next time and I don't want to do that so get up and start a new knowing you merely slipped but can still turn it around. Have a good day in London!
You are almost there in that you now know that you are of two minds, like all addicts. We continue to drink or use in spite of our better judgement. That voice that tells you to drink, is actually asking for your help to give it a drink and get drunk. It can't do it without your approval and assistance, because you put the cash down on the counter, open the bottle, pour it in a glass and raise it to your lips.
However, you do have better judgement. That voice that it is not your friend, it is your enemy. It will have you drink until everything you value is gone and destroyed.
It is not you, because you want to stop. Stop obeying that voice that just wants to get buzzed and blasted once again, just like it always does.
Your will is stronger than any temptation, Nick. You, like any adult, can think of hundreds of things that you won't do, even though you might be tempted. Make picking up one of those things.
However, you do have better judgement. That voice that it is not your friend, it is your enemy. It will have you drink until everything you value is gone and destroyed.
It is not you, because you want to stop. Stop obeying that voice that just wants to get buzzed and blasted once again, just like it always does.
Your will is stronger than any temptation, Nick. You, like any adult, can think of hundreds of things that you won't do, even though you might be tempted. Make picking up one of those things.
Last edited by freshstart57; 09-22-2011 at 07:37 PM. Reason: improved something something
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I know exactly what you are going through. I have so many personal things I'm going through right now and I honestly just felt like taking a drink. Thankfully I haven't yet and I don't plan on it.
When we face difficult times it just seems too easy to reach for a bottle. Then we wake up the next day and the problems we had the day before are now times ten...trying to recall what exactly we did or said that we wouldn't normally have said in the right state of mind. That is what keeps me from drinking.
When I was drinking I hurt my husband, my sisters, my daughter, my mother...my friends. I have even ruined friendships because of my drinking. That was far worse than the problem I started out with.
I pray you wake up in the morning glad you didn't finish that bottle. Your struggle is like mine. Hard to face problems sober but the problems become worse if we don't face them sober. Congratulations on pouring out that bottle! You did the right thing.
When we face difficult times it just seems too easy to reach for a bottle. Then we wake up the next day and the problems we had the day before are now times ten...trying to recall what exactly we did or said that we wouldn't normally have said in the right state of mind. That is what keeps me from drinking.
When I was drinking I hurt my husband, my sisters, my daughter, my mother...my friends. I have even ruined friendships because of my drinking. That was far worse than the problem I started out with.
I pray you wake up in the morning glad you didn't finish that bottle. Your struggle is like mine. Hard to face problems sober but the problems become worse if we don't face them sober. Congratulations on pouring out that bottle! You did the right thing.
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I was just like Anna and Dee74. When something went wrong, I wanted to drink and forget about it. Not learning how to deal with my emotions. When I started to drink my thoughts went away and I felt better with myself. After a few days, I got sick from drinking too much. Took me 4 days to recover and it was never fun when that happens.
I always find that the only person I hurt is myself when I drink that way.
I always find that the only person I hurt is myself when I drink that way.
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hi welcome, i am also AA er,
but that means nothing our addiction has no walls hug
i hope you keep this journey of life going foward , please feel free to talk to me if you so choose hug
but that means nothing our addiction has no walls hug
i hope you keep this journey of life going foward , please feel free to talk to me if you so choose hug
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I know EXACTLY what you're going through too. I just went back to AA on Monday after being out for a year and a half - and on day 3 (Wednesday) I had such bad anxiety and bad feelings guess where my mind took me? Ah yes, the booze. So I drank again. It's such an automatic reaction because i've been doing it for so long. Every feeling I felt, I drank away. And now the feelings are starting to flood back again because i've numbed them for so long. So what do I feel like doing? Drinking them away. I'm struggling with it right now but I've been there before and I've made it before - as so many others have made it too. The good thing is that there's so much support from others like us out there. I don't know where i'd be without it. Hospitalized maybe... dead... in jail... who knows?? But it is doable and there is hope - there is always hope - so stick in there, i'm glad you poured the rest of the bottle out.
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Thanks again to all of you for the words of support. I woke up today to a lovely day in London (sans hangover) and so relieved that I poured that bottle away.
Planning to hit a meeting today and keep pressing on. It would have to be a Friday night tonight though which was always my worst;-((
Luckily there's a local meeting at 8pm so I'll attend that and then get back on SR I think.
Have a great day/night all
(QUOTE - freshstart
That voice that tells you to drink, is actually asking for your help to give it a drink and get drunk. It can't do it without your approval and assistance, because you put the cash down on the counter, open the bottle, pour it in a glass and raise it to your lips.)
Freshstart - I have never thought of THE VOICE in the way you just described. WOW - what a truly insightful comment which I will always remember - thank you so much indeed my friend;-))
Nick
Planning to hit a meeting today and keep pressing on. It would have to be a Friday night tonight though which was always my worst;-((
Luckily there's a local meeting at 8pm so I'll attend that and then get back on SR I think.
Have a great day/night all
(QUOTE - freshstart
That voice that tells you to drink, is actually asking for your help to give it a drink and get drunk. It can't do it without your approval and assistance, because you put the cash down on the counter, open the bottle, pour it in a glass and raise it to your lips.)
Freshstart - I have never thought of THE VOICE in the way you just described. WOW - what a truly insightful comment which I will always remember - thank you so much indeed my friend;-))
Nick
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The worst thing that you can do is to feel guilty about it, because then that little voice that you mentioned has just come in the back door again. Guilt is a wasted emotion. Just know that you are not perfect, be gentle with yourself and continue on in the direction of your hearts desire. I know for me the hardest part of using alchohol to escape was the guilt I felt. Once I moved beyond that to being more accepting and loving toward myself things changed for the better. Be well....
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Well done a day down just one more moment to go hug
the worst thing you can do is pick up that drink, you are allowed all those feelings , all of them , just dont hold on to them hug
keep goin and keep comin back
the worst thing you can do is pick up that drink, you are allowed all those feelings , all of them , just dont hold on to them hug
keep goin and keep comin back
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