half my life down the tube. time to get a grip
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half my life down the tube. time to get a grip
Well, here it is... My first post. Ive been living lies for the past 12 years. I am on day 2 of my new life. My oldest child is 4 as of a couple weeks ago, old enough to realize when daddy is all jacked up. So since i cant do it for myself, heres a shot at sobriety for my two beautiful daughters Ariane and Jacklynn. And my absolutly perfect wife Paige for sticking with me even though i Have put her through hell. How a sober woman could stay with a drug addict like me is wag beyond my ccomprehension . But i sure am glad she did. Selfishness is out .... Sobriety is in. Hello world, i have finally arrived.
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:ghug3 Congratulations and welcome to SR!! You can do this, and we're here to support you! Read and post as much as you like. You'll find a lot of helpful information here and a lot of wonderful people, too! Again, congratulations on your decision to improve your life! 
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We are all proud of your decision, Randy. Just wait until you see Paige's smile that lights her eyes again. You remember the one. It will come.
Congratulations on your decision.
Congratulations on your decision.
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Hi randyberry! You can definitely do this thing - I made it out of hell after a lifetime of being foggy & numb. It felt strange at first, learning to live in a whole new way. Then I began to experience the thrill of being free. Your ladies will be so happy to have the real you in their lives.
We look forward to hearing more from you - congratulations on your desire to have a new life. No more danger & drama.
We look forward to hearing more from you - congratulations on your desire to have a new life. No more danger & drama.
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Welcome to the forum!
Congratulations on your decision to get your life back - you won't regret it! We have a section on substance abuse you may want to check out: Substance Abuse - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information
Congratulations on your decision to get your life back - you won't regret it! We have a section on substance abuse you may want to check out: Substance Abuse - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information
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Thanks to everyone who read my brief overview of my life. I am going to sleep a lot better tonight due to the encouragment I have gotten today. This whole process was intimidating just a day ago. But thanks to a wonderful group of real people who are overcoming real addiction, I feel much more at ease. Thank you all again. See you tomorrow on the wagon!
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Hi randyberry, welcome aboard
We sound a lot alike from your short description. I quit drinking at 50 with an 8 year old daughter, and my wife was extraordinarily patient with me as well. If you're like I was, two of the most awful things was, 1) not having the energy to play or do something with my daughter when she was bursting with excitement, and 2) seeing the look in my wife's eyes when she saw nothing but emotional deadness in my eyes at a time when she really needed my support. Those days are gone now - I'm back in my families life in the best of ways, and you can too. It takes time, effort, and dedication, but it really does get easier as time goes by.
I dropped in to SR at least twice a day, and it was a HUGE reason why I'm still sober 14 months later. Lots of wisdom from those who have walked the path to sobriety, and there are many, many paths to choose from!
We sound a lot alike from your short description. I quit drinking at 50 with an 8 year old daughter, and my wife was extraordinarily patient with me as well. If you're like I was, two of the most awful things was, 1) not having the energy to play or do something with my daughter when she was bursting with excitement, and 2) seeing the look in my wife's eyes when she saw nothing but emotional deadness in my eyes at a time when she really needed my support. Those days are gone now - I'm back in my families life in the best of ways, and you can too. It takes time, effort, and dedication, but it really does get easier as time goes by.
I dropped in to SR at least twice a day, and it was a HUGE reason why I'm still sober 14 months later. Lots of wisdom from those who have walked the path to sobriety, and there are many, many paths to choose from!
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murray, boy you sure hit the nail on the head with the "lazy" feeling. today i literally couldn't get off the couch. wtf. and when i do stand up, i feel way dizzy. so all i did was eat and sleep. i guess when your body is used to being kept up and alert by hardcore substances, when you dont have them.... the opposite effect will take hold. that makes sense to me. but how long will this process continue to haunt me?
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