New beginning
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Join Date: Sep 2011
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New beginning
Today is the is the start of the new me. I've got a slight hangover from the six pack i drank las night but i fell optimistic. I'm 29, and i've gotten drunk every Friday and Saturday for ten years. In the last 4 years it's started to creep into the weekdays as well. The stange thing is i can moderatley drink for a month or two but then i get sucked right back into the pattern of abuse. It's this constant back and forth that has me confused and angry at myself. I feel soooo much better when i drinking mederatley. My mental capacity came back and my confidence shot through the roof! I enjoy drinking 2 beers slowly throughout the night and going to bed early. I wake up feeling so proud of myself. Then i'll hang out with some friends and get drunk with everybody else becasue i'm having such a good time. I'll then drink heavily for the next 3 months because of this. So this past weekend i allowed myself to get drunk as a reward for this sobriety journey i'm going to try and take. I've never tried Sobriety before but i think i'm finnaly ready to explore its benifits. This is going to be very hard for me because i am in love with alcohol. It's my best friend. It's always been there for me. Alcohol made the world bearable for me. It was the perfect escape from my thoughts. My mind is always racing with thoughts of the meaning of life, politics, Philosophy, morality, ect. Alcohol shut up those hard questions and just let me enjoy the world. I know i can make it to this Thursay sober but when Friday comes i'll really need you guys. I've been reading these threads for a year and this is my first one. You guys seem so supportive and i really need it.
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Welcome idletime2 -
I can relate. I thought alcohol was the only bright spot in my life, and I loved the mental vacation it gave me. It comes with so much misery, though, and over time it just gets worse.
Glad you found this forum - it's just about impossible to do this without support. The first weekend was tough but I felt so good about myself once I got through it. Make some plans this week so you have something to look forward to keep posting/reading.
I can relate. I thought alcohol was the only bright spot in my life, and I loved the mental vacation it gave me. It comes with so much misery, though, and over time it just gets worse.
Glad you found this forum - it's just about impossible to do this without support. The first weekend was tough but I felt so good about myself once I got through it. Make some plans this week so you have something to look forward to keep posting/reading.
to SR...glad you signed up and making a commitment to lasting recovery. 
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Welcome idletime 
I had a deep intense relationship with alcohol too - but it got to the point I was no longer taking the drink, the drink was taking me.
I've found a lot of amazing things happen when you get sober - I know you'll find them too
Welcome
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I had a deep intense relationship with alcohol too - but it got to the point I was no longer taking the drink, the drink was taking me.
I've found a lot of amazing things happen when you get sober - I know you'll find them too
Welcome
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Join Date: Sep 2011
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Thanks Guys! I desperately want to conquer this problem while i'm still young. These hangovers have gotten so bad as the years go by i know my body is saying STOP IT. Today was a pretty bad hangover but reading these posts was so inspiring it made it seem better. Thankyou
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Join Date: Sep 2011
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Good luck Idle x. I too have a noisey mind like yours that is constant, I dont know if it would help you but meditation has really helped me. There is alot of help online it just helps me quiet down and breathe. Its not you that wants the drugs.......... its your addiction x, and what you want sounds so much better than what it wants. my thoughts are with you x
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