Drank way too much last night...
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Drank way too much last night...
How does this happen? I don't understand! I am suffering from a vicious hangover today, splitting headache, vomiting, shaking, the whole nine yards. And of course, I'm feeling stupid, disappointed with myself, guilty, everything that goes along with it. But despite all that, and regardless of how many times I vow to never drink again (and right now that's exactly how I feel), just give me a day or two, and I'll be right back at it.
Why don't I learn? Shouldn't this teach me a lesson? I just feel so stupid...
Why don't I learn? Shouldn't this teach me a lesson? I just feel so stupid...
I did that for 15 years ljames.
I think in my case I wanted to be a normal drinker - and despite all the mounting evidence to the contrary, I persisted with that delusion.
Once I accepted that my relationship with alcohol had always been self destructive and it would never change, I accepted that drinking was no longer a viable option and I started to move forward...
I know you can too - never give up - think about what you can add to what you've been doing - you can do this
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I think in my case I wanted to be a normal drinker - and despite all the mounting evidence to the contrary, I persisted with that delusion.
Once I accepted that my relationship with alcohol had always been self destructive and it would never change, I accepted that drinking was no longer a viable option and I started to move forward...
I know you can too - never give up - think about what you can add to what you've been doing - you can do this
D
I asked that question so many times I doubt I could count them. I still don't understand it, except to say that addiction has nothing to do with reason.
I'm so sorry you're going through this. It's scary to think about quitting, I know, but I hate to see things get worse for you (and they will if you keep drinking). Just posting about it, though, takes some courage and I admire you for that!:day6
I'm so sorry you're going through this. It's scary to think about quitting, I know, but I hate to see things get worse for you (and they will if you keep drinking). Just posting about it, though, takes some courage and I admire you for that!:day6
How does this happen? I don't understand! I am suffering from a vicious hangover today, splitting headache, vomiting, shaking, the whole nine yards. And of course, I'm feeling stupid, disappointed with myself, guilty, everything that goes along with it. But despite all that, and regardless of how many times I vow to never drink again (and right now that's exactly how I feel), just give me a day or two, and I'll be right back at it.
Why don't I learn? Shouldn't this teach me a lesson? I just feel so stupid...
Why don't I learn? Shouldn't this teach me a lesson? I just feel so stupid...
How does this happen? I don't understand! I am suffering from a vicious hangover today, splitting headache, vomiting, shaking, the whole nine yards. And of course, I'm feeling stupid, disappointed with myself, guilty, everything that goes along with it. But despite all that, and regardless of how many times I vow to never drink again (and right now that's exactly how I feel), just give me a day or two, and I'll be right back at it.
Why don't I learn? Shouldn't this teach me a lesson? I just feel so stupid...
It's pretty insane isn't it?
I used to have a bit of a problem with step 2 of AA, "Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity" . . . thinking to myself, hey wait a minute, I'm not insane!
And I'm not. But just add alcohol and I can start acting like it.
The Big Book aptly describes it as cunning, baffling and powerful.
Why don't I learn? Shouldn't this teach me a lesson? I just feel so stupid...
It's pretty insane isn't it?
I used to have a bit of a problem with step 2 of AA, "Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity" . . . thinking to myself, hey wait a minute, I'm not insane!
And I'm not. But just add alcohol and I can start acting like it.
The Big Book aptly describes it as cunning, baffling and powerful.
How does this happen? I don't understand! I am suffering from a vicious hangover today, splitting headache, vomiting, shaking, the whole nine yards. And of course, I'm feeling stupid, disappointed with myself, guilty, everything that goes along with it. But despite all that, and regardless of how many times I vow to never drink again (and right now that's exactly how I feel), just give me a day or two, and I'll be right back at it.
Why don't I learn? Shouldn't this teach me a lesson? I just feel so stupid...
Why don't I learn? Shouldn't this teach me a lesson? I just feel so stupid...
Take a breath, hold it and release. Get detoxed. Coming off alcohol can kill you. You can do it. I can do it. Sobriety is a bitch but we must accept it and embrace Sobriety. Personally, it's the second most important thing to me. First is a child. Gotta have one to have the other.
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I had many start/stop cycles myself, usually lasting 3-4 days, but some for a few months. I came to realize that my mistake was in trying to lessen the desire for drinking, rather than accepting it. I would try to get happier, or distract myself with other things, hoping that old voice telling me to go to the liquor store would go away, and it would for a while, but it wouldn't last. Once I accepted that I both wanted to quit and wanted to keep on drinking (at the same time!), and that there was nothing wrong with that, I was able to look at things more clearly.
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