LSNP

Well, it took four months to get me back to where I was when I stopped the first time.

Hating on myself pretty hard today.

I blame my ex.... but know I was free to choose.

I need to look at the ex, the alcohol, and the cigarettes all in the same way. Bad for me. A sickness. Quit them all.

I'm two under as I type. Haven't done this for awhile. It repulses me. I repulse me.

Today.

nandm

Everyone has to start somewhere and it sounds like you are motivated to start a new life. I do encourage you to change your perspective of hating yourself to hating the disease of addiction. It is counter productive to hate oneself as it can lead us into self pity and loathing which tends to put us right back into drinking/drugging. Best of luck on your new journey.

eJoshua

Hi LSNP. I'm sure that you must feel awful about yourself right now, but we are all allowed to make mistakes once in a while. Remember that there is no shame in falling down, there is only shame in falling down and not getting up.

Dee74

Don't hate yourself - that only ever led me back to the bottle.

Get up, dust yourself and start again - forget about blame...action is where you need to put your energy now

Tomorrow's a new day, fresh start...

D