TakingCharge999

I am so grateful tonight!

September 3 years ago...

I was breaking up with XABF and my eyes hurt from crying. I looked like a zombie and barely made it to work and went through the bare basics of life. I was starting to have suicidal thoughts. I had NEVER felt so empty and the only ones who understood and shared compassion with me were the wonderful SR folks.


I start this September:

Laughing with my mom.
Relaxing listening to the night storm. (Gotan project)

Got Tibetan meditation techniques course in the local Tibet center this weekend. Spa on Sunday .

Next weekend, visit my best friends in Mex city. Dalai Lama conference on Sunday.

Then I will come back and move with a girl friend. Cheaper rent that will allow me to:


Save to get the Mazda 3 I always wanted to drive. I need to drive an automatic gear now. Great excuse to get a better car!!

-AND-

Save to go get my masters degree in Sweden. I already know which program and which University. I am so excited thinking about my graduation day and re-learning the basic Swedish I learned some years ago.

I still practice different kinds of boxing and I love it. I have to modify many moves but I enjoy the music very much. My technique has improved, as has my core strength.

I am planning to go to 3 concerts! very exciting! Including a Mexican rock band Caifanes which is one of my favorites ever...

I went to a coffee shop today and loved the Chai latte.

My mom decided to move somewhere else, a place we both love in the South of the country. I am happ about spending some relaxing time there and knowing she will be OK, in a more relaxed place.

I am satisfied and happy with my job.

Taking an online photography course.

I might go to Bangkok once again next year. Thinking of getting a better camera. And buying great designer fabric (very cheap over there). Oh, because I am throwing myself to my dream: fashion design! I am just starting and am surprising myself with all the illustration and ideas that I got.
This is what I always wanted to do. But I never had time because I was too busy being depressed, blaming others, wasting my time with losers/jerks, and ignoring my talents and interests.

I am still angry/resentful about things but not as much as I was. Trusting the process, starting to feel a shift...



I am catching up with the life I had not enjoyed so far.

I am full of gratitude today, finding good friends, around good company and positive people who believe in me. I don't know why I was sad before, when life can be great, and I have many things to be grateful for. I guess I am shedding the negativity and having a more balanced view of life, a life that includes REAL FRIENDS, music, tasty food, drinks once in a while, books, travel, laughter, peaceful nights....

Thanks for letting me share and for all the support these last 3 years!

I hope anyone that is going through difficult mourning stages realizes there is much more to live and to enjoy ahead of you... IT DOES GET SO MUCH BETTER!

MTSlideAddict

Your progress in the last three years is very inspirational. Thank you for sharing. You are doing great and I am glad that you have found much deserved happiness.

Go get those dreams!