bennybored

It was so hard for me to get out of bed today = I could stay in there all day but I have to work. After 12 days I thought I was fine, had some wine one night, to beer another and another and another night - totally threw away all my progress and my week. I have an extremely important and hard week coming up and I wanted to be clear and ready and I am the complete opposite. I am so depressed. I hate feeling this way. I hate that I can't drink normally and have no control. So depressed.

Healthyfood

bennybored

You are alone. This happened to me as well. 6 days nice, happy and healthy me. 1 slip and I drunk for days. So the I relapsed again and could not stop.
Today is my Day1 and Im ready to face the sobriety! What motives me, there is a choice be sober and have a wonderful life or drunk with no life.

bennybored

Thanks Healthyfood, I just commented on your thread as you did mine. And I agree about the drunk is no life. I have wasted so much of my life already in the bottle.

SSIL75

In recovery I realized that it's just not a big deal. Like, of course not drinking is a BFD. It keeps me sane and all that. But it's easy, doesn't really impact my life (in fact, it improves it). Nobody really gives a **** whether I drink or not etc.

Drinking is only a big deal to alcoholics, IME.

Elisabeth888

Today is a great day to be sober!

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bennybored

Me too, I have wasted years. Why waste more? Im sure we will find something as good as drinking. New hobby, new people, new opportunities! Yoga people say that alco stops luck coming into alcoholic lives!!!! This is serious and scary.
And thats true. Do you know anyone who is alcoholic and is happy and successful?

sugarbear1

I'm sober and I woke up unmotivated. I have things to do, but I want to get back in bed.

I think as an alcoholic, it takes time to change...and I often set myself up for problems. The day isn't over.

I'm feeling pressured to quit cigs and not sure I'm ready, and after my 4th & 8th steps, my past is haunting me. Maybe it's just the barometric pressure after the hurricaine! Who knows. Let's see what I can do before bed. I slept in and missed my 7 am meeting...tomorrow, I will get there, my days are always better after that meeting.

Hang in there everyone!

bennybored

good point H- I don't know anyone who is an alcoholic and happy and successful. The happy people are the ones that are really living and doing stuff in their lives. I think today its just affecting more because I feel so down on myself for drinking and I feel so depressed and unprepared for my important week and all the time I wasted last week.

sugarbear1

Healthyfood, I know many people who are no longer drinking who are happy and successful. Many were once broke and homeless.

Maybe I fear success...

sugarbear1

We can change our feelings by doing things. I am going to go through another pile of older papers and clean up this place. Soon.

UofI2008

Alot of people relapse. I'm proud that you pulled yourself up and didn't continue to let yourself sink back into your old ways.

I was feeling a bit this way today as well. I 'm just coming out of a relapse as well and I am feeling a bit overwhelmed. I think all we can do is keep trying and realize that the path we are on is a path to an easier life.

bennybored

thanks UofI2008!!! I wish you strength and support tooo!!!

Healthyfood

bennybored

yeah I feel the same. Wasted all my last week and weekend! Feel very depressed. I m waiting till it finally passes and I will start feel normal again.

So that is scary we both do not know any alcoholic who is happy....see what I mean! We still have a chance to be who we want to be!!!

stevie88

Chin up benny you went 12 days before,you can do it again....I also relapsed before you did and i just slipped back into the old routine of drinking 15 pints a day again....I just had to snap my self back out of it and jump back on the waggon.....

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sugarbear1

Happiness and alco are enemies!

sugarbear1

I feel like I relapsed without drinking. It's just today, or maybe not being productive. I've been too lazy. No drinking for me, I just need to clean up my home!

Muunray

Just like they say with smoking..keeping quitting til you quit.
Don't stop quitting.
I wish I had chosen/found sobriety sooner. You can do it!

artsoul

Hi HealthyFood - Hang in there...... Give it a couple days and you'll feel so much better. I know it's hard not to feel disappointed in yourself, but remember that alcohol is causing a lot of the depression/anxiety, too.

Be good to yourself!:ghug3

Healthyfood

Muunray

I wish I had chosen/found sobriety sooner.

I love what you said!

Healthyfood

artsoul

Yeah today is hard day, so tired, so low...barely could do some laundry.