I'm back and starting over...
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Join Date: Apr 2011
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I'm back and starting over...
Ok SR I came here the first time I tried to get sober which was about 6 months ago. I was able to make 120 days on my own just visiting and posting here and reading books about sobriety and using friends and family as a support group. I relapsed at my sisters wedding. I'm still not sure why it just kind of happened. I even made it through the rehersal dinner the night before the wedding without taking a single drink.
Anyways I've gotten drunk twice in the last couple months since my intial relapse both were 2 day binges. I've come back here in order to rededicate myself to staying sober.
I feel like I'm going to try a few different things this time. I may go to AA and I think I'm just going to straight up tell people why I'm quitting this time. Before I would always just make up excuses etc. instead of just telling people I'm a horrible drunk who if he downs one will down the whole bar plus what he's got at home. All in all 2 day started and looking to break that 120 mark.
And for all those people out there just starting. Let me tell you those 120 days were the best I've had in a long time. I know now that I've "seen the light" I won't stop trying until I can achieve my ultimate goal of lasting sobriety.
Anyways I've gotten drunk twice in the last couple months since my intial relapse both were 2 day binges. I've come back here in order to rededicate myself to staying sober.
I feel like I'm going to try a few different things this time. I may go to AA and I think I'm just going to straight up tell people why I'm quitting this time. Before I would always just make up excuses etc. instead of just telling people I'm a horrible drunk who if he downs one will down the whole bar plus what he's got at home. All in all 2 day started and looking to break that 120 mark.
And for all those people out there just starting. Let me tell you those 120 days were the best I've had in a long time. I know now that I've "seen the light" I won't stop trying until I can achieve my ultimate goal of lasting sobriety.
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UofI2008 - It's wonderful you are back! You have a great attitude. Maybe you just needed to be more convinced.
It's possible that getting through the rehearsal dinner without drinking made you feel (subconsciously) that you could now control it, & have 'a few' at the wedding. I did that sort of thing for years & damaged myself terribly. This doesn't have to be you! You already know what needs to be done.
Your 120 days were the best you've had in a long time - never forget that, and cling to it. You're going to do it again, and this time for good.
Thanks for a great post.
It's possible that getting through the rehearsal dinner without drinking made you feel (subconsciously) that you could now control it, & have 'a few' at the wedding. I did that sort of thing for years & damaged myself terribly. This doesn't have to be you! You already know what needs to be done.
Your 120 days were the best you've had in a long time - never forget that, and cling to it. You're going to do it again, and this time for good.
Thanks for a great post.
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Join Date: May 2011
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Helloo and Welcome back to the life
Its nice to hear you are tryin to set a plan thats great, I myself am an AA er , so if you try it i hope you like it.
If not there are other ways to find the peace and serenity you search so keep on comin back like before. We in AA do not have the monopoly on soberity-but i sure couldnt do it without hug
Its nice to hear you are tryin to set a plan thats great, I myself am an AA er , so if you try it i hope you like it.
If not there are other ways to find the peace and serenity you search so keep on comin back like before. We in AA do not have the monopoly on soberity-but i sure couldnt do it without hug
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