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Day free
Im having a day free from my addictions
I think Im an alcoholic. Well, I dont have the insane cravings to drink, withdrawals and etc. But in the last 6 months or so I`ve been having some rough days and nights because of alcohol.
Im 21 year old. Five months ago I had my first big black out. I spent 3 to 4 hours running around in the street after a party and I dont remember nothing. I woke up in my bed covered up in blood and vomit not knowing absolutely nothing of what happened.
I spent 2 weeks without a drink and then began drinking again, only on weekends. I noticed that I started to have some bad hungovers from only a few drinks. I started to feel a little jittery in the morning. And I started to feel depressed after drinking (even if it was just one beer).
Sometimes I used alcohol during the week to fortify myself before some social situations.
Well I decided to quit. Not really because alcohol is batlantly destroying my life, because it`s not (at least yet). But I have depression and anxiety since I was a kid and alcohol seems to be worsing it.
Also when Im drunk, I hang out with some people I think I should be away from. I used to call them my friends but now I just dont know anymore.
Im also a internet porn addict.
Well today I didnt drink, didnt watch porn, didnt contact friends. My friends only cara about to drink and do drugs (I stay away from these, for the most part)
But I feel depressed and anxious. I think I will have difficulty sleeping today. Maybe it`s kinda mild withdrawal. I feel very alone. I dont really have friends or family members to talk to. I will be completely isolated for this weekend since the only people I want to talk now are the people from my new college.
How is difficult to try to start a new life!
I think Im an alcoholic. Well, I dont have the insane cravings to drink, withdrawals and etc. But in the last 6 months or so I`ve been having some rough days and nights because of alcohol.
Im 21 year old. Five months ago I had my first big black out. I spent 3 to 4 hours running around in the street after a party and I dont remember nothing. I woke up in my bed covered up in blood and vomit not knowing absolutely nothing of what happened.
I spent 2 weeks without a drink and then began drinking again, only on weekends. I noticed that I started to have some bad hungovers from only a few drinks. I started to feel a little jittery in the morning. And I started to feel depressed after drinking (even if it was just one beer).
Sometimes I used alcohol during the week to fortify myself before some social situations.
Well I decided to quit. Not really because alcohol is batlantly destroying my life, because it`s not (at least yet). But I have depression and anxiety since I was a kid and alcohol seems to be worsing it.
Also when Im drunk, I hang out with some people I think I should be away from. I used to call them my friends but now I just dont know anymore.
Im also a internet porn addict.
Well today I didnt drink, didnt watch porn, didnt contact friends. My friends only cara about to drink and do drugs (I stay away from these, for the most part)
But I feel depressed and anxious. I think I will have difficulty sleeping today. Maybe it`s kinda mild withdrawal. I feel very alone. I dont really have friends or family members to talk to. I will be completely isolated for this weekend since the only people I want to talk now are the people from my new college.
How is difficult to try to start a new life!
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
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Hi again Andre
It can be difficult for sure - I think, in a lot of ways, it was the most difficult thing I've ever done...
But I found a lot of support and encouragement here...and looking at the life I have now, I don't regret my decision for a second
D
It can be difficult for sure - I think, in a lot of ways, it was the most difficult thing I've ever done...
But I found a lot of support and encouragement here...and looking at the life I have now, I don't regret my decision for a second
D
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Join Date: Apr 2010
Location: Mississippi
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I think it's great that you're looking at what alcohol is doing in your life. I've only had one blackout, but it was pretty scary. Thank God I was with friends that night.
I can relate to the anxiety/depression and the worsening hangovers, too. (Actually, having a hangover is just going through withdrawal).
Glad you're here.....
I can relate to the anxiety/depression and the worsening hangovers, too. (Actually, having a hangover is just going through withdrawal).
Glad you're here.....
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Join Date: Mar 2011
Location: Midwest
Posts: 471
Welcome! I think it's great that you want to stop your addictions. The blackout thing is very scary-- at the worst of my drinking I would black out almost every night. You are still very young; it's great that you realize you need help now.
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