Why is it so hard to remember...
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Join Date: Aug 2011
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Why is it so hard to remember...
That I am not in charge? That my brilliant ideas and behavior run on my self will dont work so well!! I am just a little over the 6 month mark and so clearly realize that the outrageous thinking and rational is still there, though the alcohol isnt!! I am just thankful that I have a program to work, a tool box to refer to and support of other sober alcoholics!!
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(((JKO))) - welcome to SR!! I know, for me, it took a while before my thinking really started to change. It started off with being aware of my thoughts/actions, and then learning how to get through and past them.
SR has been a big help, in that area. I think most of us go through this. Don't know about you, but I wanted to be RECOVERED instantly..patience is not something I'm real good at, but recovery has helped me get better
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
SR has been a big help, in that area. I think most of us go through this. Don't know about you, but I wanted to be RECOVERED instantly..patience is not something I'm real good at, but recovery has helped me get better
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
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I am glad to hear I'm not alone on the matter... I was telling my husband last night that I don't understand why I chose not to use my toolbox when I have an issue.. But instead overthink, over react and try to control everything... I like how u said u wanted to be recovered instantly! That sums it up for me... And I love, I'm not where I want to be but at least I am not where I was... That reminded me that this is a life long process... Gotta hang up that need for instant gratification!!! Thanks so much for helping me put things in perspective!
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Jko - Thanks so much for sharing those valuable thoughts. When we can compare notes like this it really helps.
It took me a lifetime to admit I wasn't in charge, and that willpower could not be used to manage my drinking. It took dangerous black-outs to show me anything could happen once I took that first drink. Wish I'd had that realization before I crashed & burned.
Glad to see you are doing some soul searching and figuring this thing out. You're doing great.
It took me a lifetime to admit I wasn't in charge, and that willpower could not be used to manage my drinking. It took dangerous black-outs to show me anything could happen once I took that first drink. Wish I'd had that realization before I crashed & burned.
Glad to see you are doing some soul searching and figuring this thing out. You're doing great.
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Welcome to SR!
I relied on myself a long time and I really didn't do a very good job of taking care of myself. I don't think that tendancy will ever go away though. I have to surrender everything every morning to God and trust that he will take care of it better then I ever could.
I relied on myself a long time and I really didn't do a very good job of taking care of myself. I don't think that tendancy will ever go away though. I have to surrender everything every morning to God and trust that he will take care of it better then I ever could.
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