Celebrating 30 days today
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Celebrating 30 days today
Today is 30 days of sobriety for me. This is the first time I've ever just quit (instead of playing those games about cutting down) and so far it's just a relief.
I have learned so much in the past 30 days:
--Oooh, I have feelings. :-)
--Feeling my feelings won't kill me.
--I am stronger than I thought.
--Alcohol made things so much worse than I even realized.
--Alcohol was making me temporarily insane.
--Sobriety can be fun.
I am reading, cooking, taking care of myself, and just generally feeling more like *me* than I have for a very long time. I have moments of spontaneous joy and gratitude that could never have bubbled up through the alcohol cloud.
I want to sincerely thank everyone who posts on SR for your inspiration and support. You are one amazing group of people.
I read this quote this morning from the Buddhist monk Thich Nhat Hanh and felt it really spoke to what I've learned in the past 30 days:
“This is a very important practice. Live your daily life in a way that you never lose yourself. When you are carried away with your worries, fears, cravings, anger, and desire, you run away from yourself and you lose yourself. The practice is always to go back to oneself."
I had lost myself but now I am coming back home.
Namaste.
I have learned so much in the past 30 days:
--Oooh, I have feelings. :-)
--Feeling my feelings won't kill me.
--I am stronger than I thought.
--Alcohol made things so much worse than I even realized.
--Alcohol was making me temporarily insane.
--Sobriety can be fun.
I am reading, cooking, taking care of myself, and just generally feeling more like *me* than I have for a very long time. I have moments of spontaneous joy and gratitude that could never have bubbled up through the alcohol cloud.
I want to sincerely thank everyone who posts on SR for your inspiration and support. You are one amazing group of people.
I read this quote this morning from the Buddhist monk Thich Nhat Hanh and felt it really spoke to what I've learned in the past 30 days:
“This is a very important practice. Live your daily life in a way that you never lose yourself. When you are carried away with your worries, fears, cravings, anger, and desire, you run away from yourself and you lose yourself. The practice is always to go back to oneself."
I had lost myself but now I am coming back home.
Namaste.
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A great post to open my day with. Its terrific to read and also to relate to. Instead of sleeping off another drunk I was up at 5:30 ready for my walk. Isn't life lived a miracle? Congratulations on your time and progress. Its life we're living again.
"Normally, we do not so much look at things as overlook them." Alan Watts
"Normally, we do not so much look at things as overlook them." Alan Watts
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A great post to open my day with. Its terrific to read and also to relate to. Instead of sleeping off another drunk I was up at 5:30 ready for my walk. Isn't life lived a miracle? Congratulations on your time and progress. Its life we're living again.
"Normally, we do not so much look at things as overlook them." Alan Watts
"Normally, we do not so much look at things as overlook them." Alan Watts
I am inspired by your posts on a daily basis, Fitz, so glad I could provide something in return this morning.
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Isn't it a beautiful feeling to wake up without a hangover? That's still my favorite part of every day...the novelty has not worn off yet.
The terrible thing was, toward the end I never had hangovers because I never sobered up, even if it meant getting up in the middle of the night to continue my drinking and starting again in place of breakfast. I don't know what awakening is but I know, for me, recovery is an ongoing jolt of silent engery coursing throughout my body and mind. I never knew it could be like this. Its so good to share and read others sharing.
"Every human being is the author of his own health or disease." Buddha
The terrible thing was, toward the end I never had hangovers because I never sobered up, even if it meant getting up in the middle of the night to continue my drinking and starting again in place of breakfast. I don't know what awakening is but I know, for me, recovery is an ongoing jolt of silent engery coursing throughout my body and mind. I never knew it could be like this. Its so good to share and read others sharing.
"Every human being is the author of his own health or disease." Buddha
Congrats on your success in sobriety...have a wonderful day.
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Great post Bodhi Tree and brilliant achievement too, it does feel so good. I never remember ever, a day after a night on the pop, waking up and thinking wow that feels really good! Never!
Like you I love the morning, waking up with a clear head, free of chemicals, free of guilt, remembering exactly what I did last night and exactly what I did before my head gratefully hit the pillow is nothing less than amazing. Those waking up morning "highs" really get me through those moments when the beast comes to try his luck.
Well done, come on fellow Julian, lets rock on to 60 my friend! x
Like you I love the morning, waking up with a clear head, free of chemicals, free of guilt, remembering exactly what I did last night and exactly what I did before my head gratefully hit the pillow is nothing less than amazing. Those waking up morning "highs" really get me through those moments when the beast comes to try his luck.
Well done, come on fellow Julian, lets rock on to 60 my friend! x
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Thank you everyone!
Fenris--congratulations on your chip!
EnglishRose, my fellow Julian, I have so enjoyed following your posts and look forward to continuing the journey with you.
Fenris--congratulations on your chip!
EnglishRose, my fellow Julian, I have so enjoyed following your posts and look forward to continuing the journey with you.
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Feels good to feel good again, doesn't it?
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Originally Posted by MycoolFitz
I agree, my worst day sober beats my best day drunk.
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