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Hi everyone,
This is day one after a series of promises to myself and husband that I was done drinking or cutting back. So far today hasn't been as bad as I had anticipated, but it's only about 3 in the afternoon. I usually make myself wait until the 5 o'clock hour to indulge. I've read quite a bit on these forums and thank you for the wealth of knowledge!
This is day one after a series of promises to myself and husband that I was done drinking or cutting back. So far today hasn't been as bad as I had anticipated, but it's only about 3 in the afternoon. I usually make myself wait until the 5 o'clock hour to indulge. I've read quite a bit on these forums and thank you for the wealth of knowledge!
3 pm became my trigger/craving time. It WAS 4 pm, but as the disease progresses, you need more and more, earlier and earlier. I have 3 weeks sobriety today, and 3 weeks ago if someone had told me I would be saying that today, I would have thought they were absolutely nutso....but it is possible! Keep the faith and coming here helps so much too!
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Hi Hardtofind,
I know all too well about the "scheduled" drinking time that becomes part of ones daily routine. I used to go buy the stuff around 2 so it would be cold and ready to drink at 3:30. This meant that I would get increased anxiety at 2 as that was when I was "supposed" to get started on my ritual. But the cool thing is that once I got to 8 without drinking, I was fine. It was "just" a question of hanging in.
I wish you all the best. Be careful around 5. There is light on the other side. It is going to be awesome for you to go sober to bed today and know that _you_ made that decision!
I know all too well about the "scheduled" drinking time that becomes part of ones daily routine. I used to go buy the stuff around 2 so it would be cold and ready to drink at 3:30. This meant that I would get increased anxiety at 2 as that was when I was "supposed" to get started on my ritual. But the cool thing is that once I got to 8 without drinking, I was fine. It was "just" a question of hanging in.
I wish you all the best. Be careful around 5. There is light on the other side. It is going to be awesome for you to go sober to bed today and know that _you_ made that decision!
Welcome! Congrats on your decision to quit. If cravings are worst at 5 perhaps go to an AA meeting or two or three since it's Saturday. I know that that can be a scary proposition, but it worked for me. I drank heavily for 14 years & today, thanks to AA, I am 70 days clean. You're not alone.
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Welcome Hardtofind! You'll find a ton of support here, glad you found SR Maybe you can find something else to do at around the same hour you would have been drinking that you enjoy to revamp the daily routine. Just registering here, posting, and introducing yourself is a good first step. Go to bed early if you have to...be kind to yourself!
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I'm so glad day one is over and wasn't as bad as I feared. Taking the vitamin supplements seems to help this time. May also be that I know this is for real and not anticipating how to justify a relapse puts me in a little better place mentally. Now, to get ready for church and face day 2. Hopefully, each day from here will feel better!
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So day two was pretty good until evening time. I started shaking and ended up asking my hubby to take me to AA. So we can't find the place due to road construction and we look up another meeting on the phone. Ended up being a great group at an NA meeting. It was humbling. I might do the NA approach because alcohol was a substitute for food, which was a sub for drugs, which was a sub for anxiety since I was little. Maybe just kill them all with one stone. No pun intended. Day three and I'm feeling a bit like me today. Gonna try to clean the house a bit and invite the pastor to dinner. Have a great day everyone!
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