ThePupsSavedMe

i am feeling very restless and anxious. This is where i would get high and space out, and not have to think. I feel pretty good lately. Thinking of it less and less, but tonight i went in my room for something and i could smell it. Of course it was nothing but a ghost but it shows me i am not over it yet. I'm not beating myself up but i just wish my mind would let it go. I am learning how to live straight and honestly sometimes it sucks!! I feel the urge to be altered =(

MycoolFitz

I hear you, I often feel restless and anxious, my shrink even gave it an expensive name. And I know ghosts and they just don't go boo in the night. Addiction isn't something we get over overnight, it hangs around for a long time like a stray cat we've fed for years. It may suck sometimes (but not all the time?) but you are learning how to live straight and honestly--what more is there. Keep going forward, its only restlessness, anxiety and ghosts, they can be painful but they can't hurt you.

Anna

It's normal to find it hard to deal with emotions in early recovery. I think that we need to learn to deal with life without using alcohol. If you're feeling restless and anxious, maybe you could listen to some music, call a friend, go for a walk, do something that helps to calm you. Hang in there!

ThePupsSavedMe

Thanks Mycool, you are so right about the ghost. I guess i was doing so good that it caught me offguard today. I know there will be days like this, i'm hoping less days than more ;-) This site helps, and i tell myself to come here when i am feeling weak. For me its going to take a few steps to relapse, and i'm thankful for that. On a good note, no bad dreams for a few nights =)

ThePupsSavedMe

Thanks Anna, i am pulling out an old meditation CD. It does help me relax and feel calmer. Its just hard to get out of my own head sometimes =\

Latte

The mileage on my exercise machine is evident that even after five years I still struggle. Meetings and exercise are how I cope. Some days are better than others.

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