Rpo77

I have what I think is an addictive personality. I drink just about daily, anywhere from 1-5 drinks. I don't drink to get drunk, I drink because it is just what I do at that time of day. Mostly habitual. I smoke marijuana, right now, daily. I go weeks, months without smoking, but when I pick it up again and again, I go crazy with it. Last year I had a pretty serious cocaine habit, which I DO NOT use anymore, but I can't help but think about it and wonder if it could be a reason for my current anxiety, angst, crap sleeping and even my drinking. I want to be the bright colorful young man that I know I am. To be everything I can be for my significant other who has stuck with me through so much of this (which I can't help but feel she isn't going to take much more of me being miserable and lost), to be a better more active father to my dog, to enjoy everyday not haze through it, I want to be me again. So, there it is, this is me and what I want. Now where to start?

IndaMiricale

Welcome 77

Well i think you answered your own question, where to start -

you came here great beginning, now just try to set a plan and keep comin back here reading and posting.

sobermax

That looks like a pretty good start to me!

Welcome to SR.

SM

Dee74

welcome Rpo.

I think support makes all the difference.
SR was where it all started for me.

Other people use face to face support to like AA or SMART or counseling.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...formation.html

Whatever path you choose - reaching out is the first step, I think

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ttbp

Welcome

You've come to the right place xxx